nobel's like the queen of my hse.i cant imagine how upset everyone would be if she's really gone.
blood donors are really rare.haix.im trying hard,and i hope that i can find her one.though chances seem to be pretty slim now.

but my nobel's a strong girl.she shud be feeling pretty horrible now.but she doesnt show it at all.she doesnt whine,and tries to look normal.gosh.get well soon can? i haven done wad i've promised you yet.

i've just recovered from the loss of miko.i really was just starting to feel that i've got over that loss,now im abt to face another one.
crap.why cant i do anything for her?

miko.pls.dun take nobel away.not now.

Comms ball was pretty fun,but a little awkward too.ha.saw lots of familiar faces...ALOT FROM TJ(guys and dates)!
THANK YOU REAGEN FOR BEING SUCH A GENTLEMAN(AT LEAST DURING MOST OF THE TIME)!! =D
eh.i really did try my best to not disgrace you alr ar! hahas! it was a really nice experience! thank you! =)

im feeling really crappy today.and most probably tmr too-.-
oh well.who cares. =S

i wish that...haix.

i just finished writing a letter to him.the last time i talked to him,or even saw him was like..mm.a yr ago.
just a few more months,and he'll be out.i hope that he'll finally grow up and think.hope that he'll do well in the future.

its time to decide which degree to take.i thot that it might be difficult to decide.but now that i've placed his future before mine,i think..i know wad i'll choose now.hopefully he'll realise how much we've done for him.

daddy keeps saying that i always do things rashly,without thinking or consulting anyone.ha.this shows how much he uds me.and does consulting help anw? no.it wont.and they know it clearly-.-

ahh.i like ghost whisperer! and its crazy to cry almost every episode.hahas.

i feel better now.

ahh.i feel so much more energetic after a nice bath! =)

met up with the girls to celebrate nat's bday in advance! happy 20th nat!! and im glad that i gave her her card on time this time=) so glad that tuition was cancelled today! cos i was already feeling sleepy after lunch! hahas.

things dun feel the same anymore.ppl are becoming harsher,impatient,awkward and busier too.
yes.they'll say,PLS UDS.WE CANT HLP IT.
but seriously,do they uds you then?

ahh! school's starting tmr! feeling excited,and upset too.no more holidays =(
and really.im gonna start studying alr! hahas.

haix.bad time of the mth.makes me moody and frustrated easily=(

okay.i made my wk a pretty busy one! congrats-.-

had class outing on tues.movie and steamboat.but ahh.it was a lil uncomfortable.weird.spending hrs tgt.cos seriously,it was difficult to look for a common topic-.- but anyway! it was a good attempt? and the best part is,i found the right dress for dinner alr! hahas.i think i shall go back to buy soon!

walked around vivo after tuition on wed.finally explored the place,was starving! but ended up with just a cup of bubble tea.cos everywhr was crowded.and it was no fun walking alone,so i left! hahas.

spent the whole of ytd slacking at hm.slept ALOT! hahas.and did wad i had to do.but ahh!! i think im out of ideas! i hope everything turns out fine! :)

will be meeting my primary school friends ltr! we haven met since we graduated? hahas.THAT LONG.oh mannnn! i hope that it wont get awkward ltr!! have fun!

working and meeting jc clique tmr! i hope i can make it! hope that it wont be busy at work tmr!!!
then its celebrating nat's bday on sunday! yay! cant wait to see them soon!

look! i made my week busy! how smart! =)

okay.i can conclude that this will be a horrible week! everyone's busy! schooling! ns-ing! working! holidaying! AHH! finally a good wk of holiday! a great wk of rest,BUT! NTH TO DO! so upsetting!! so disappointing!!

ended my last paper last sat! it wasnt easy! so i din complete and left! ha! i think less than half the hall was ard when i left! met hpt clique! for alice then dinner(which din turn out as planned-.-) hahas.i thot the movie was pretty fun! THE NAME IS HMMM.YOU IDIOT! hahas!! i love her head=)

tuition today was pretty fun too.those kids were very excited and enthu abt lessons today! ha! and they called me TEACHER! lol!

im gonna keep myself busy this wk! im gonna find lots of things to do!!!!

yay! finally had my steamboat at hm ytd! with my family and DOGS=) it was great talking to sisters and mum as usual,though it felt a little weird too cos our topics seem to get more senstive each time-.-
ahh.nobel looks alot less active now.im starting to get worried now.stay strong k? =(

i had my first tuition today! yay! hahas.was a little worried at first,but luckily i could handle marcus so far.his mum wants me to focus on chinese,so we had a whole lesson of chinese! heh.and i made a few mistakes IN FRONT OF HIS MUM-.- i think..i need to start reading chinese soon.hahas.
will be teaching his sis from next wk too.so i think..i might stop flower-ing soon=(

sat! last paper! yay! then meeting reagen and gang after that!

but shucks.dunno wad to wear for d&d =/

heh.went to watch my sis's bball finals today.first time watching a bball match,and also the first time watching my sis play! lol.she kept calling me this morning to remind me of her match-.-

anw! thank you chunfu for going with me! hahas.come on! wasnt my sis imba?
ahh.i think they played pretty well alr lah.but their opponent was better prepared.hahas.

it was amazing to watch her play like that.seriously,i din know that she was that good at it.hahas.
oh.and it was weird when her coach and teacher shook my hand when she introduced me as her sis.hahas.but also very proud to hear her coach say,"GILLAN HAS MATURED ALOT THIS YR." lol.weirdness!

went town.and talked alot abt our secondary sch days.ahh.so much fun and nice memories!
but din stay long,cos we're both tired and dressed very chui-ly-.-

a few more days to my last paper! i shall start studying tmr! and do the chores!!

haven had my steamboat yet! i think i shud ask my mum out! friends cant be trusted-.-
hahas! weekends! come soon!! =)

well.2 more papers to go...but im in a complete holiday mood! stats tmr..and im not even 30% done yet! HOHO! how!!! @.@ luckily its a late night paper!! hahas.

I WANT STEAMBOAT! and zoe that ass cheated my feelings agn-.- first vios.now play!! ha.nvm.like wad i told shigs IN HER FACE..i have lots of other friends-.- hahas.and i have the will,so i'll find a way to have steamboat,somehow!

acty,i have things to say.but oh well.it can wait till next time.if i still feel like saying then.

hahas.mel and i lost our way that other day when we visited zoe's place.and its not my fault!! it was the first time i took 88 mah!! different route!! hahas.sorry mel!! acty all these yrs,i think i havent really got the chance to interact much with him.cos it felt like we dun have much in common.hahas.he's one wise and smart kid,with lots of profound words.thats why thr was a gap btw us -.-
but while travelling and finding our way back,he listened to me talk alot.things that happened in the past yr,things that happened when i was young,things that i din say before..hahas.and that loser! 5 yrs of friendship and he din know that my parents were divorced! (that showed how much we uds each other.hahas) i know its a bit late,but thks mel! i needed that ear!
just read jack's blog and i realised that im lucky to have you all as my friends.friends who dun meet often,but can joke,laugh,have fun,talk and play each time we meet,WITHOUT AWKWARDNESS=)
same goes to reagen,chunfu and kailing! who i started meeting agn,after a long long while!
no awkwardness.ahhh.i think its in the phs blood.hahas.

okay! enough talking and back to studying!!!

well.the major papers are over! all packed in 3 days.now im left with 2 more papers,but with lots of time in btw.SO.mm...maybe i'll do better?

hahas.time to slack slack.though i've been doing it all the time-.-
well...at least i wont feel as guilty watching movies and not studying now!

but more time means more thinking.so maybe i should study.
ahh.seriously,i have VERY SHORT attention span lately.i cant stay still for more than 15mins! hahas.and i think i look dumb at hm! try picturing me moving my stuffs here and there,from one room to another,from living rm to bedrooms too.EVERY 15,20MINS-.-
hahas.good luck van!

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likes someone,who din even exist in the first place.