im pissed.
and my pals are not online.
luckily thr's still shengyu. and luckily he's one who knows my family probs too. easier to talk to. cos daddy's arguing with his girlfriend. over why they dun wanna admit their relationship. but actually he has admitted it alr by doing so. i feel so disgusted abt the conv. i guess that's the prob with broken families. with ur mum's remarried and ur dad attached. it feels weird and somehow disgusting to see them with someone not related to u. but they always say that kids shouldnt interfere. why do ppl look for their happiness at the expense of others? why do they do things for the sake of doing? without considering abt others? haix.though they divorced abt 12 yrs back, i'll still feel sad. but its a unchangeable fact.
he din msg me tonight. when i needed someone to listen to my frustrations. feel rather empty. and i openly talked to shengyu abt him alr. i also asked shengyu to tell him to go aft the girl he likes. sounds rather weird. asking the one u like to go aft the one he likes. haha. but im fine with it. cos he's my gd friend.
dad's still arguing. but im gonna slp. cant be bothered with it.
Monday, March 31, 2008
I LOVE U GUYS!!!!
hey pals! this is for u guys!!
i've been thinking abt this. how can i let u guys know how im feeling especially at times when u guys were not ard and i needed u? Often, i've got so much to say but no one to listen to me. By the time u guys finally found time for me, i dun feel like saying anything alr. mm..i guess this blog will help us to stay in touch with the things happening in each other's lives. hopefully it does!
well,the past few wks havent been really great for me. been quite busy with tests. STRESSED! and vball trngs were not really good. the juniors still dun really take trngs seriously when competition period is starting soon. mm.i can understand that school life is full of work to be completed but i think its kinda wrong to miss trngs now cos u haven done ur work yet, esp when u know the deadline. cos once a big grp of ppl miss trng, a few of us cant train much too. vball's a team game and everyone's impt. i dun really ask for much lah. but can u girls try to stay more committed? as for me, thurs trng sucks! my first ball sucks! kenneth served like 5 balls to me and i couldnt receive any well. so for the next set, i got substituted by libero. was really demoralised to the max! couldnt spike after that too. i screwed up my timings. but the worst thing is that though i was really feeling horrible (i did put on a black face for a while), i tried to be normal and cheered them on. inside me, i felt like crying. but i dun wanna show my disappointment. can anyone see the tears i shed beside my smiles? really needed someone to talk to then. but i couldnt tell shiyun. sometimes its really hard to tell ur team mate abt such things even when she's my best pal. luckily after trng, ken and xiujie treated shiyun and me bubble tea and when walking to the interchange, ken talked to me. felt better after that. thks alot!
as u guys alr know, haha. i got rejected by him. he was a really good friend of mine before he found out. he's often thr to listen to me especially when i couldnt find my pals. but he seldom talks to me nowadays ever since he knew abt it. but i dun blame him for that. really. kinda expected that anw. just felt rather bad for making things quite awkward for him. we tried to be normal and pretended that it nv happened when we meet. but at times, it kinda made things worse. i was disappointed by his reaction for a couple of days. but im fine now. it's just that now, when im feeling down, i wld hope that he was thr for me to talk to. but i nv dared to try talking to him cos im afraid that i'll annoy him. but im really fine. really. i heard that he sprained his ankle from peiwen on sat morning. she said that she saw him limping down the stairs after trng on fri. he went to see a doc that night and he had to rely on crutches for 1 wk. it wasnt a fracture, but a serious sprain. mm..i felt really diappointed. cos i din found out abt this from him. i guess if he nv found out that i like him, he wld have told me cos usually he'll tell me things that happened during his trngs. but luckily he msged me in the afternoon to ask me to look out for team bags cos i was going queensway with shiyun. and i asked abt his ankle. i hate myself cos i din dare to show much concern. we did msg for a while until he was drowsy from his medicine and went to slp. hey! u better dun move abt and take care ya? and peiwen also said that he may not be coming to sch next wk if it's too troublesome walking. ah! if he's not coming for 1 wk, i wont see him for 1 wk. i bet i'll feel quite empty. but i guess i wld prefer him to rest at hm rather than moving abt in school. get well soon!
hey! i had a nice time with u guys ytd! NAT! HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY!! well, after graduating from phs, we haven really found much time for each other. ytd was one of the few occasions that we finally put aside some time to meet up to celebrate nat's bday. hey girl! im so sorry that we couldnt meet u on ur actual bday. We had school and couldnt rush for ur lunch break. And i was pretty busy this whole wk! with lots of work to complete and econs test!!!! though the card and present are kinda simple, but i hope that u'll like it k? well, at least i rmb to bring ur present. unlike someone(shiggy) haha =) she's quite blur that ytd. first she forgot to take the present out, then she took me on the wrong bus and we ended up in bt batok instead of city hall. nat changed quite alot since we graduated. she's more conscientious of her appearance now. we had sakae for dinner and both shigs and nat kept talking abt clothes and make up. zoe,minmin and i had no share in their conv. but all 5 of us kept joking ard and laughed very loudly. everyone kept looking at us. all thks to min and zoe. haha=) went to mac for ice cream ltr at night. zoe and i went to get a small cake for nat. took lots of pics thr. then shigs and nat had to leave. and i was tired too. so we all left. took train back with min. talked alot too. mm.it has been quite some time since we last talked like that.
here are some pics that we took! kinda rare cos nat doesnt take pics often.

i've been thinking abt this. how can i let u guys know how im feeling especially at times when u guys were not ard and i needed u? Often, i've got so much to say but no one to listen to me. By the time u guys finally found time for me, i dun feel like saying anything alr. mm..i guess this blog will help us to stay in touch with the things happening in each other's lives. hopefully it does!
well,the past few wks havent been really great for me. been quite busy with tests. STRESSED! and vball trngs were not really good. the juniors still dun really take trngs seriously when competition period is starting soon. mm.i can understand that school life is full of work to be completed but i think its kinda wrong to miss trngs now cos u haven done ur work yet, esp when u know the deadline. cos once a big grp of ppl miss trng, a few of us cant train much too. vball's a team game and everyone's impt. i dun really ask for much lah. but can u girls try to stay more committed? as for me, thurs trng sucks! my first ball sucks! kenneth served like 5 balls to me and i couldnt receive any well. so for the next set, i got substituted by libero. was really demoralised to the max! couldnt spike after that too. i screwed up my timings. but the worst thing is that though i was really feeling horrible (i did put on a black face for a while), i tried to be normal and cheered them on. inside me, i felt like crying. but i dun wanna show my disappointment. can anyone see the tears i shed beside my smiles? really needed someone to talk to then. but i couldnt tell shiyun. sometimes its really hard to tell ur team mate abt such things even when she's my best pal. luckily after trng, ken and xiujie treated shiyun and me bubble tea and when walking to the interchange, ken talked to me. felt better after that. thks alot!
as u guys alr know, haha. i got rejected by him. he was a really good friend of mine before he found out. he's often thr to listen to me especially when i couldnt find my pals. but he seldom talks to me nowadays ever since he knew abt it. but i dun blame him for that. really. kinda expected that anw. just felt rather bad for making things quite awkward for him. we tried to be normal and pretended that it nv happened when we meet. but at times, it kinda made things worse. i was disappointed by his reaction for a couple of days. but im fine now. it's just that now, when im feeling down, i wld hope that he was thr for me to talk to. but i nv dared to try talking to him cos im afraid that i'll annoy him. but im really fine. really. i heard that he sprained his ankle from peiwen on sat morning. she said that she saw him limping down the stairs after trng on fri. he went to see a doc that night and he had to rely on crutches for 1 wk. it wasnt a fracture, but a serious sprain. mm..i felt really diappointed. cos i din found out abt this from him. i guess if he nv found out that i like him, he wld have told me cos usually he'll tell me things that happened during his trngs. but luckily he msged me in the afternoon to ask me to look out for team bags cos i was going queensway with shiyun. and i asked abt his ankle. i hate myself cos i din dare to show much concern. we did msg for a while until he was drowsy from his medicine and went to slp. hey! u better dun move abt and take care ya? and peiwen also said that he may not be coming to sch next wk if it's too troublesome walking. ah! if he's not coming for 1 wk, i wont see him for 1 wk. i bet i'll feel quite empty. but i guess i wld prefer him to rest at hm rather than moving abt in school. get well soon!
hey! i had a nice time with u guys ytd! NAT! HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY!! well, after graduating from phs, we haven really found much time for each other. ytd was one of the few occasions that we finally put aside some time to meet up to celebrate nat's bday. hey girl! im so sorry that we couldnt meet u on ur actual bday. We had school and couldnt rush for ur lunch break. And i was pretty busy this whole wk! with lots of work to complete and econs test!!!! though the card and present are kinda simple, but i hope that u'll like it k? well, at least i rmb to bring ur present. unlike someone(shiggy) haha =) she's quite blur that ytd. first she forgot to take the present out, then she took me on the wrong bus and we ended up in bt batok instead of city hall. nat changed quite alot since we graduated. she's more conscientious of her appearance now. we had sakae for dinner and both shigs and nat kept talking abt clothes and make up. zoe,minmin and i had no share in their conv. but all 5 of us kept joking ard and laughed very loudly. everyone kept looking at us. all thks to min and zoe. haha=) went to mac for ice cream ltr at night. zoe and i went to get a small cake for nat. took lots of pics thr. then shigs and nat had to leave. and i was tired too. so we all left. took train back with min. talked alot too. mm.it has been quite some time since we last talked like that.
here are some pics that we took! kinda rare cos nat doesnt take pics often.
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