wow.it has been a busy week.and very tiring too.was sick when the week started.i guess i din recover from last week? hahahs.but im quite fine now! had a terrible cough.almost coughed my lungs out! hahas.



had trng ytd! super tiring! only 20mins and i was almost dead. haven played ball or even exercise for more than one mth alr! (cos im on mc due to my knee. NO NAPFA!! hahas.) so i was really really tired during trng.hahas.but i had lots of fun! was as crazy as before.and as noisy! and still screamed alot!! hahas.thats me during trng in tj=) wow! i woke up this morning and everywhere ached alot!! but it felt so good to be able to train with the girls again! really nice to be training in tj.feels so comfortable.hahas.



mummy called me on fri.so random! she asked wad i was doing,hows my studies and so on...and if i was going back on sat.i said i think i would.but i din.hahas.was tired after trng!!yupp.and she asked why i sounded different.so i told her i was sick.and she asked me to take care and drink salt water.lol.mm.i guess she misses me? maybe bah.cos i haven seen her for weeks.and haven talked much to her too.actually i wanted to tell her that i miss home-cooked food! i wanted her to cook for me.but i guess she's busy with work bah.mm.i felt a bit bad that i din go back ytd.i always say i would,but nv did so.last night i dreamt that miko died.woke up up and i was scared.hahas.kinda dumb lah.so i decided that i shall go back today.AND I WILL.




wow.its sunday already.tmr's the start of a busy week again.ah! im feeling tired. really. but i shall hang on there! i shall.


went to cut hair with shigs ytd.luckily it wasnt bad! hahas.






it was raining very heavily ytd.and stopped after a while.but the rain in me din stop.i was being forgotten once again.intentionally or unintentionally,i dunno.i tried to be normal.tried to forget wad had happened.tried to forget wad u guys did.i tried to be wad u guys wanted.but i've been kinda emotional lately.had frequent mood swings so i din try to pretend anymore.im tired of masks.
luckily someone brought me an umbrella.hahas.im not forgotten by ALL.at least ONE rmbs.
the weather today is very fine.i'll enjoy my day=)
when harm has been done,no matter how hard u try,it'll still leave a scar.

mm.received my results ytd.thk goodness i passed.hahas.though my results arent good lah.but then its much better than expected considering how much i've studied.hahas.now i really gotta start working hard!



daddy's bday was on thurs.i asked my sisters to come over for dinner and got them to call my dad to let him know that they're coming.cos i din wanna tell him myself.feels so gay.hahas.we all bought him 2 shirts and a cake=) very nice! and we went for dinner tgt.he was very happy that day.kept smiling and laughing.i've nv seen him laugh so much before.he was really happy.hahas.he even asked if i wanted a credit card.wow.he must be super happy that day.but obviously i said no lah.why will i need one for? mm.maybe next time lah.but not now=)



daddy's 47 this yr.and i realised that his memory's really failing him.mm.i thot it was just because he was naggy initially.but now i think he really dun rmb.oh no.he's getting older alr.these few days,i kept thinking alot.really hope that i can do well in my studies and support my parents as soon as possible.great responsibilty but believe that i can and i will make it! argh!! jiayou!!
ytd i went to the airport alone.im really sorry best friend! its not that i din want u to come along so i din tell u.but perhaps i just wanted some time to be quiet alone.was thinking why do ppl have so many diff sides,why cant ppl think simply and treat others genuinely,how can friendships be so fragile and easily affected.i really dun uds and i dun wanna do so too.mm.i also thot of other stuffs too.felt better after the trip=) watched 15 planes land before i left.wow! alot of planes!! very beautiful.hahas.
mm.went to see the doctor again for my knee.this time,he gave me supplements and 6wks MC.mm.haven been moving much lately!! getting fatter and fatter! hahas.



ok.meeting zoe for subway ltr!! yum yum!! and i gotta start doing some stuffs soon! mm.how shud i get started?




i find myself slowly sinking deeper in it.

TODAY IS A SCH HOLIDAY! and im slacking at hm. im still in the holiday mood. JCT was straight after the June Hols,then we had a day off cos we had no papers.and now its youth day. woah.so many hols. when can i get out of the slacking mood and start doing work?? mm.i dunno either =(

but i din forget that NATIONAL DAY IS NEXT MTH =)


haix.all gillian's fault lah.she came back late last night. daddy din scold her. but i got all the scoldings instead. super suay. cant even use my laptop in my own rm cos he said i was disturbing my sis. HELLO.ITS MY RM. he said that if i wanted to use,i had to leave my rm. I REFUSED. but din wanna argue or wad. so i just shut it and went to slp. HE'S SO ANNOYING AND IRRITATING. I JUST HATE HIM WHEN HE'S LIKE THIS. when he's in a bad mood, he'll find fault in wadever i do. EVEN WHEN THERE'S PERFECTLY NTH WRONG WITH WAD I WAS DOING. was so pissed last night. ARGH!
i have a temper too. its not only you. really annoyed by your sarcastic replies and comments. yupp best friend. you were right abt who i was talking abt. and yes,i can still hahas and be normal though im really upset. isnt that good? i dunno too. sometimes i dun uds. if you dun like ppl to do these to you, why do you still do the same things to others? you being overly sensitive and suspicious are beginning to hurt not only you,but ppl ard you who care for you. haix.wad can i do? wadever i do are just ACTS to you right? im so tired of these. no longer misunderstandings,cos you chose to see them this way. haix. I HATE MYSELF!
daddy said last night that terence has grown alot taller,probably taller than me now. i can only imagine,but not see him myself. he said he may have hm leave on his bday in Sept. somehow, i know he's looking forward to it. i know he wants to come hm very badly. cant imagine his disappointment if he cant come hm. i..dun wish to think abt it too. misses. loves.




oh man! my table's so messy!! gotta clear up now!! hey pals! lets meet up soon!! this weekends??? hahas.

UPDATES..

wow! i've been pretty busy for the past few weeks! with tests,activities and homework?? hahas.

din do well for JCTs =) as expected. but im still so calm abt it. hahas. hey shigs! dun be upset alr lah.chill man! and lets work hard tgt!! zoe too! we can...STUDY tgt=) okok?? haven met up with u guys for a long time. haix. was supposed to go out with u guys to sentosa today. but i've been sick for the past few days. ytd i still went for my class outing, then my dad was a bit bu shuang alr though he din say cannot go lah. so i guess it wld be better if i stayed at hm. sorry pals! hope that u guys had fun! oh oh! and i saw Rena on TV!!! substituting Jessica Liu.super cool! and i saw shui-ji coaching them.super gross.hahas.but its cool to watch a drama with volleyball!

i think i dun like him alr.maybe just a bit.its no longer the same.i felt kinda glad when he msged me a few days back to ask me to take care of myself.was a bit surprised to see that msg.hahas.he's sick too.but recovering alr bah.i din dare to show much concern.at least not openly.hahahs.andrew knows wad i mean.thks alot for hlping me=) but the good thing is,i dun feel very far from him alr lah.at least can still talk.and at least he'll still suan me like everyone else=)
went to the ZOO with my clique last sunday. IT WAS VERY VERY VERY FUN! though tiring. but thinking abt the trip will make me smile to myself.hahas.feels dumb.here are some pics we took that day! we took alot alot alot of pics! and travelled the whole zoo!

this is inuka,which we named zx after it.cos they're both silent stalkers.hahas.

MY FAVOURITE GIRAFFE!!!!

AND THE BEAUTIFUL ZEBRAS! LOVE THEM TOO=)

we had a lunch pinic too! everyone brought sth to eat.and the table was filled with food that we din managed to finish!!! super nice=) yummy yummy!!

hahas.the focus is on the background=) for dunno wad reason,while having our pinic,we realised more and more indians came over for pinic too!!! SOON,WE BECAME THE MINORITY AS WE WERE SURROUNDED BY THEM! we started to speak in chinese and shared racist jokes.hahas.super super funny!

these are my personal favourites!
andrew came up with an idea! that we come up with some kungfu poses. super funny!

then peiwen thot of the evolution. but i was the one who gave her that idea!! =) I LOVE THIS ONE! VERY NICE!! hahahs.

cos we all felt bad that we din celebrate peiwen's and shengyu's bday,we decided to have a belated celebration at the zoo. we planned it the day before at his place. and we all decided that we'll go for the splash show and tell the MC beforehand that we're celebrating their bdays,so that they can be involved in the show. when the MC asked for volunteers that day, all of us,except pw, raised our hands. then when we were chosen,we pushed both sy and pw out! they din know that we were trying to celebrate their bday!

then we showed them the video audrey made. i brought my laptop. BUT I FORGOT TO BRING BATTERY!!! luckily i had the plug with me. we had a hard time searching for a POWER SOURCE. and i had a tough time carrying that heavy bag and walking ard the zoo. luckily andrew hlped me to carry halfway. THKS ALOT BEST FRIEND=)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!

ok.i gotta be honest. im starting to be annoyed. cos of ur sarcasm. i feel that u're scary. its making me uncomfortable and at the same time,quite angry. especially wad u said abt him that day. i was kinda pissed,and offended. so dun blame me. i just dun have the mood to take all these. sometimes,its not just abt u. u're quite self-centred at times.think abt me,will u? how will i feel? haix.i dun wish to talk abt this alr.

i was reminded of my brother today.kinda upset.but im fine=) hope that he's doing fine.daddy's visiting him tmr.and as usual,he doesnt want me and my sis to go along.

love is irreplaceble. i love MY FAMILY. love MY DOGS. love MY PALS. love MY CLIQUE. love YOU, and YOU and YOU and YOU TOO. I LOVE EVERYONE=) i realised how beautiful it is. how strong it can be. its such a UNIQUE thing=)

OK.gotta slp soon.I DUN WANNA BE LATE TMR!! hahas=)

HOPE TO MEET UP WITH U GIRLS SOON!! ZOE!! SUBWAY OKOK? LOVE U GUYS!