miko passed away today.around 6.25pm.i wasnt even prepared for it.thankfully i stayed at my yishun hm the last few days.cos i knew that she was getting weaker..and i quarrelled with my dad so i moved out.but i moved hm last night.during my stay,miko was weaker each day.she was totally pale.her gums,stomach,paws,tongue..all pale.last night mummy said that we shud send her to the vet today.cos i forgot to bring my charger hm last night,i went back to yishun today to get it.then my sis asked me to bring miko to the vet near my place.miko could still walk ytd,but she couldnt move much when i saw her today.i hugged her and told her to be strong so that terence can see her next mth.now i dunno how to tell him this.


i was stroking her at hm.then when i stopped,she finally moved for the day.she moved her head to my hand..asking me to continue massaging her.when i was abt to bring her to the vet,she suddenly went under the bed.now i uds...perhaps she knew her time was up,so she was looking for a corner to rest.but anw,she wouldnt come out no matter how i called her.so i crawled in and got her out.i hugged her close to me when walking to the vet.i kept telling her to be strong and recover soon.she kept turning her head..looking at the surroundings.the vet said that she was weak and suspected that her kidney and liver werent functioning alr.the vet suggested a blood test and hospitalized her while putting her on drip.she couldnt even stand alr.but i saw her eyes move and look at me.then i told her to take care and i would leave her thr to receive treatment.i cried alr when the vet said that she was in a critical state.so..i just left her thr and walked ard in the neighbourhood.then mummy called.mummy said that the vet called her cos miko collapsed soon after i left.i ran back to the clinic.but i guess...i din managed to see her for the last time.dogs die with their eyes open.miko was no longer moving.i cried very badly...and im still crying.mummy said miko din want us to see her die.so she chose a time to leave.the vet said that they realised she was having breathing difficulties when thye were abt to feed her.then her heartbeat was fainter.she went into a coma..and they tried CPR to resuscitate her.but it din work.she was in coma when she left.so..she left in peace.the vet saw weird things in her blood.he suspects that miko had leukemia.her body was killing the blood cells...so she din have blood flowing alr..and that led to her death.



i really dunno wad to do.i've nv encounter death before.miko has always been lonely.now she's alone in the other world.does she know her way? will she get lost? will she have company? will she be happier? i hope that she will not be a dog her next life.cos..she din have an easy life this time. i miss her.i really do.looking ard the hse,i see her everywhere.i saw her slping on the cushion,under the iron board,at the corner of the bed..in the toilet drinking water..at the door wagging her tail...in her bed chewing her dental sticks.i rmb how she barked at strangers,how she squeezed in with me in bed,how she jumped on me,how she got me to touch her.everything just happened too suddenly.i had so much to tell her.i told her that i would bring her to ECP when she recover.but i dun have the chance anymore. i wish that i can hug her again.wish that i could confide in her agn..wish that she would slp with me agn..



even my brave mummy cried over the phone.i really cant stop crying.my tears keep rolling down.like its free.my eyes hurt.but i wont stop.i cant stop.i miss her.i really do.



good bye miko! she'll be cremated tmr.and gone for good.i promise i wont forget you.thank you for being with me for the past 8 yrs.thank you for all the joy and company.thank you for being my great friend.thr's so much to thk you.ah.im not prepared to say bye yet.


hey best friend.i know that u're feeling very upset too.sorry for troubling you and reminding you k? cheer up!
i love you.rest in peace.