i feel really useless.and selfish.i haven teared so much in a while alr.

sometimes i think im not to blame.i was so young then.how to take care of you?
but thinking back,i think i could have done a much better job.we were left on our own when we were young.you were only 2.i hated home.i din like to talk to you guys.i found you all really annoying.
IF ONLY i was patient and nice,IF i cared more,you wont turn out this way.

i knew that you were turning bad.but i thot it was nth much,you would change after a while.so i simply shouted at you a couple of times and ignored you after that.
you din change.you got worse.


the first time i visited you at the hm,i cried uncontrollably even before meeting you.i dunno why.i saw that you had changed.and the kiss you gave me,and the way you called me...i wont forget.

when you first got your hm leave,you really became very sensible,polite and no longer impatient.why did you change now agn? why cant you learn? when will you start thinking?

i know its tough being by yourself.there will be ppl who dislike you and purposely pick on you.why,wont you talk to me?

i wanted to hug you just now,but not to stop you from running.when i lost you for that while,i felt really helpless.i dunno what will happen to you,and why were you doing all these?

when i saw you cry,i felt how much you wanted to be free,and how upset you were after being wronged.i felt how much you wanted to be forgiven,but no one gave you the chance.thats why you could turn back,but sink deeper.

you know you can trust us.you know mummy loves you.so do we.you know we'll be on your side.ask yourself,how many times have you done wrong? have we stopped trusting you? have we stopped standing by your side? you know we din.you know you're not the only one suffering,we're all going thru all these with you.when will you turn back?


pls.let him learn and change.love him,protect him and change him.

HAPPY VALENTINE TO ME.
my 19th valentine.
at least i was busy working and bringing joy to others.my most memorable valentine so far.at least im not alone this time.and i have an excuse for not having a date.hahas.
so many flowers sold.so many sweet couples.and with a terrible sore throat.
and im still alone.hahas.

MINMIN! STOP MAKING OTHERS JEALOUS! HAHAS!!


TO MY DEAREST ZOE....
THKS SO MUCH FOR DROPPING BY.WITH THE PINK GERBERA.(THOUGH I LIKE THE ORANGE ONE MORE).
hahas.sorry ar.i was too busy to talk to you.feel very paiseh! like you come for nth.but trust me.it made me feel better=) especially after some awful experience.THKS SO MUCH=)


valentine's finally over.so much freer now.time to have fun agn=) VBALL! IM COMING!!!!


some things shud be let go.but not forgotten.
my prince charming will appear someday=)

im tired.
but im thinking.
im missing.
and im not too happy.
im busy working.


went shopping with mummy ytd.great joke.she said she was at amk when i was at work.so i said i could meet her when i finished work.she only picked up her phone when i was on the train and reaching braddell.SHE WAS AT TOA PAYOH.but told me wrongly previously.and guess wad? SHE WAS JUST OPP MY SHOP.lol.made me travel for nth! i've been shopping lately.but nv ended up with lots of stuffs before.so im gonna shop soon agn.perhaps after valentine.cos i dun have any time alr.tired=(


i've tried.but we know it wont change back.

some things dun have to be said.but i can feel it.unknowingly,you showed me how much im worth.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZOE.