i din know that it'll hurt this much.ah.its like one of the toughest times i ever had.

i tried hard to hold everything back.but it all came out in front of mum.in the end,she's still the one who loves me most.i wish he was more supportive.and keep all those awful words.

if only..you know that im working hard now.
im just asking for someone to support whatever im doing now.and know that im trying hard alr.
IM NOT GIVING UP THIS EASILY!

and you! you din keep your promise. =(

*yawnssssssssssss!!* im very tired now! hahas.i cant rmb when was the last time i woke up WHEN THE SKY'S STILL DARK! today's the first day of school.gotta wake up EARLY ar! oh man! can you imagine how pitiful im gonna be for the rest of school life??? cos lectures starts at 830 EVERYDAY!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! gotta wake up as early as how i did during jc =( MINGKU ARRRR!!!!!!

hahas.but today was filled with talks.but it wasnt...that bad lah.at least i made 2 new friends! one of them is a vballer too.both from nyjc.mm.i heard from her that a few of her teammates are in sim too.including the one i dun really like.haix.acty im pretty diff from them,so i cant imagine myself being in the same team as them.HAIX.should i continue playing vball? =(

oh.hahas.cos there's alot of international students,we had to take an english test just now lah.probably to split us into tutorial grps of similar standard?? the paper was totally chim lah! we were like copying from each other and practically discussing how to write our essays too,which i dun even rmb how to write anymore!! hahas.the china girls at the end of our row were even more imba lah! hahas.they used the dictionary!

mm.my first day din sound really bad right? hahas.it feels a bit weird still.but! i'll get used to it soon! EDMUND!!!!!!!!! hahas.thks alot for the msg last night! but oh man!!!!!!!! there's not alot of hunks lah! hahas.

eh eh! its totally okay that you cant meet me today ar! hahas.im not trying to make you feel bad,but..it'll be nice if you could.feels like shud celebrate the first day of school.
plus!! it was pretty awkward being in between my sis and her bf.hahas.
but anw,i got my grandma her presents alr! my sis says she likes them! yay! hahas.

its gonna be my orientation tmr!!!!!!!! then im going to look for my family to celebrate my granny's bday!! oh man!! its gonna be another long,tiring and fun day!


i shud slp early.
GOOD NIGHT VAN!! =)

HAHAS! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!
mm.i wanna be a psp helper too! IF ONLY I KNOW HOW TO PLAY THE PSP! HAHAS.
and i really think that i know which was you.hahas.im still very proud of you ar! very nicely done=)

time flies.my pals are starting school alr.im gonna be....a pitiful,lonely & busy girl.
different schools,different courses,different timetables,different teams.....equals to VERY FEW meetings in the future.how nice!

i know that you'll uds wad i mean.maybe only you'll uds=)
thank you so much for being ard lately and also for being nice!
i like it when you pick me up,go everywhr with me,listen to me,stay beside when i cry.hahas.really!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO! steamboat was fun..AND IT WAS MY IDEA TOO! hahas.im gonna improve my chopsticks skills!!! i'll make sure that i can get 2 fishballs in one go! hahas.

AND HAPPY BDAY TO ANDREW TOO!! hahas.

oh man.im gonna be so busy the next wk.can you believe this? 4 diff outlets in a wk? wow.real challenge.
and my school's gonna start too.i hope that i'll be looking forward.

mm.its august alr.you'll be gone for a yr alr in a few wks time.and i still miss you very dearly.
love always.