for most of my life,i've planned everything by myself.when mummy interferes in how i do property,it does irritate me alot.because she's very demanding-.- to her,her views seem to be the only right views.and she must always try to oppose my views.which is really annoying.even when im trying to teach her new things.
hahas.we went to pray the other day,and coincidentally,both of us prayed for my career.
mm.i feel like im always fighting everything by myself.no one seems to agree that its right to start property now.no one seems to agree that i should defer school for a yr,though im not intending to do so too anymore.no one agreed that i should be a florist in the first place too.what others of my age are not doing now..doesnt mean that i shouldnt do too! everything's worth a try.like being a florist for instance.DIN I DO REALLY WELL IN IT? haix.see! the key is DARE TO TRY!
but the thing is..i feel like i have a lot of commitments now.its draining me out.and i wonder if i can still handle when school starts in less than a mth! though mummy and i prayed for the same thing,we had 2 different lots.VERY DIFFERENT LOTS.
mine was good! saying that its the right time to start wad im doing now.i almost cried,but im very well trained in holding back tears now.hahas.i wanted to cry,cos i felt that someone knows wad im going thru even though i dun have to say anything to HER.GOM agrees with wad im doing,maybe its luck,and i dun wanna be overly superstitious.but the feeling,that someone uds me,gives me hope and strength to move on. thank you for understanding! im not giving up yet =)
mummy had a bad one! the lot asked her to shut up and not interfere in wad im doing.hahas.THAT TEMPLE'S REALLY VERY ZHUN AR! hahahs! GOM can really read my mind! its not that i dun want my mum to interfere,but i have my ways of doing things too.i dun wanna do things HER WAY only.and im young and new.i need to meet obstacles myself before i can succeed.im not eager or anxious to succeed though.experience will help me.i dun want my mum to keep sheltering me! thats why its better for her not to interfere =)
my brother.is still not sensible yet.he's given chances after chances.and its his last chance now.why cant he see our contributions and just stay out of trouble? haix.he's of a rebellious age now and nagging or shouting makes him worse.haix.wad else can we do?
the good thing is,i think he's having chicken pox now.so he'll be out of trouble for a few days.hopefully-.-
but the bad thing is..im the one taking care of him.and i gotta bring him to the doctor in a while -.-
27TH AUGUST
you have been gone for 2 yrs.i wonder wads its like over thr.or are you even still thr? how are you now?
you were a quiet,beautiful,clean and skinny dog.memories of you are fading as life gets busier and time gets longer.but darling,you have not been forgotten.its not as painful now,but it doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt at all.
life is short.everyone should cherish every living thing we meet in our lives,because we might not see them agn even after we pass away.or maybe we will meet agn,but will we rmb each other then?
i believe that we'll meet agn.thank you for being my wonderful dog,my family =)
