im not a good role model.and i dun want them following my footsteps.
i haven been trying hard enough to guide them along.and im having troubles teaching them wads right or wrong. thats the thing abt teenagers.they think that the world revolves ard them only.but the truth is,it doesnt.because whatever you do..will affect ppl ard you.
when i was at your age,i did not have as much stuffs as you now. whatever i own now..is wad i fought hard for.wad i paid with my tears,sweat and sometimes,blood. the thing is,im just trying to teach you not to take things for granted and how to spend wisely. you cant possibly keep taking money from us to get stuffs you want. i had no older siblings to rely on.and its not good to cultivate such spending habit.you need to stop defending yourself and take in some advice. i dun want you to grow up like mum-.-
because im not good at being in anyone's life. i failed to be an encouraging sister in shamane's life,failed to bring terence back on the right track,failed to change my dad's impression of me,failed to live up to my mum's expectations and now,failed to impart the right values.
seriously,i've been trying hard to impress ppl ard me.
sick and guilty of not living up to expectations.
helpless to how minimal i can help my parents.
my life has been pretty harsh.and daddy was never as softspoken to me before.but he just did it to you just now.its pretty obvious that he's biased against me and towards you. you know,sometimes i wish he can be more supportive of me.but somehow,he's blinded from the efforts i've been putting in.
but no matter wad,family is always family. whatever family does,its definitely to hlp you to be a better person. family dun hurt family(though they may not be very considerate -.-). you may be mad,pissed, disappointed, upset at family..but when there's nowhere you can turn to, turn back.you'll see your family waiting behind.
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