finally out of tpy.
and i really felt that it was my last day too.ahh.im gonna miss the bears..the flowers..the neighbours..the kiasu aunties..and my ec.hahas!
i dun like endings.

i feel like a zombie everyday.and i dun rmb wad i do too.time..just passes lidat.ahh.im bored.but i dun feel like going out alr too.
oh mannn.holidays ending soon!! school's starting soon! ahhhh! i haven even started to rest or play yet =(
ahh,why is it so difficult to say no??!!!

yes.a day like that might come.maybe soon too.so i better start moving,before it gets too tough to deal with.

oh oh! but anw..HAHAHAHS! may said the bridal bq i made was nice!! hahahhas! totally made my day!! its a good start! but then..im afraid its gonna end soon too.

make up your mind van! wad do you want???

im trying hard to convince myself...but its not exactly working.


its amazing how much your everything affects me.i really dunno wad you want.or wad im not supposed to say or do.Ahh.sorry for being a busybody?




merry christmas
i wrapped it up and sent it
with a note saying,i love you,i mean it
now i know,wad a fool i've been
but if you kiss me now,i know you'll fool me again

HO HO HO! MERRY CHRISTMAS!! i guess everyone's having lots of fun.ahh!

but eve wasnt too bad lah ar.hahas.thank you for dropping by! ahh.you were really exceptionally nice lah.lunch was awesome and chocolates really yummy! ha.the toys inside this time are better than the previous one! ahh,you totally made my day so much better lah! really eh.at least your surprises and treats are enough to cover the horribleness i was feeling from all my carelessness =(
hahas.can you drop by more often??? =D

and minmin!!!! with her beloved weiming ar! thks for VISITING me too lah ar! hahas! with HANDMADE cookies.woahhhhhh.so sweet! =)

exams are finally over.and holidays are here.JUST A SHORT BREAK THOUGH.errs.but.must work everyday...so i guess..no break afterall?? ahh.i survived 3 long days alr! nvm lah.i guess i'll have nth to do too lah.so just accept this girl! enjoy flowers before its over?? oh mannn.im gonna miss everything.ahh!

feels...invisible agn.

and i know the night is fading..

today was a waste of time.why din volleysports know that there was a change in time? walkover!! i felt so much today than the other day lahhh=( oh.and i changed my work to tmr cos i wanted to go for match today.aiyahhh.now i gotta work tmr.full shift.alone.and time passes really slowly on sundays.
hahahs! anw,i ate alot all thks to zoe! a table FULL of food! hahas.crazy girl!! we ate like we just finished playing 5games! hahas! and shiggy! come for next match lahh! so we can have a reunion pic tgt!!!

my class's getting fun-er lately.sometimes it feels nice.oh well.just accept it.


and i thanked you the other day.cos my dad was really mean AGN.he just doesnt uds how tough things are for me the past few mths lahh.and suddenly i realised that you were usually ard during times like that.and im really glad that you were.ahh.i think i wouldnt have made it this far,if you werent ard.SO THKS ALOT AGN!!! for making my day always =D

ahh.U-19 is starting tmr!! YAY! but not all of us are gonna be thr tmr right? hahahs! i'll see you girls on thurs! AFTER YOUR PAPERS!! ahh.can your exams end soon?? and oh dear.how to get to the sports hall ar? MINMIN!! MUST MEET ME FIRST K?? mm.im now considering if i shud go hm after school tmr.ahhh.how to survive so many hrs in school tmr!!! but if i go hm....MM.I CANT SAY FOR SURE THAT I'LL COME OUT AGN.hahahahs!! ahh.so much stuffs to bring to school tmr!!

i think my dad's..MM.very immature.aiyah.still dunno how to think.

and dec's here!!! marina sq! HERE I COME! time to start all over agn!

AND OMG! DEC'S HERE.my exams are coming too! and i cant seem to get myself to study at all! cant even complete my tutorials lah! CAN SOMEONE PLS GLUE MY ASS TO THE CHAIR AND KEEP MY HANDS OFF...ANYTHING WHICH I CAN LAY MY HANDS ON.ahhh.HEADACHE AR!!! study girl!! STUDY.

being sick is horrible.feeling hot and cold is horrible.feeling dizzy is horrible.coughing is very horrible too.
BUT BEING SICK MAY BE GOOD TOO.hahas.like the poor appetite.hahhas.can lose weight!

ahh.its not difficult afterall lahh.and i see the differences finally.ahhh.enough.hahahas.

and i cant wait for U19 to start! cos the last time we were in the same team,THE FIVE OF US,was soooooo many yrs ago.hahas.this will probably be our last time tgt!!! oh mannnnnnnnnnn!!!! so excited!! hahahas!

and i might be starting my own flower biz.hahahs! so peeps! RMB TO GET FLOWERS FROM ME IN THE FUTURE K? =D

dinner ytd was great! cos 7 of us made it! hahas.had sakae at century,and HO HO! WE ATE ALOT! hahas! and talk-talked alot too.nic came after church,and zhijun drove us for cheesecake! OH GOSH ZHIJUN! YOU'RE SOOOOOOOOOO ADORABLE!!!!!!!!! OH GOSH! I LOVE YOUR PARKING SKILLS! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAS!!!!!!!!!!! BROUGHT US SOOOOOOOOO MUUUCCCCCHHHHHHHHH JOOOOOOOYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHS!!!!!!!! ppl ard us were looking and laughing as well! it was really really very adorable! cheesecake was yummy!!!! and you guys are awesome! hahas.and it was really nice to sit thr,have cake..and talk abt those days in school.awwwwww! i miss you guys!!

mm.it was still very upsetting.to know the truth.but i guess..i would have done the same thing too.cos thr's nth to even consider abt in the first place.

oh mannnnnn!!!!!!!! BIKES ARE SO FUN AND COOL!!!!!!! royston gave me a ride to work today! oh gosh! it was super fun!!! and exciting!!!!!!! hahahas! but weirdly,it felt a little naked too.hahas! and it was scary at first! mm.cos i cant even cycle -.- and bikes are so fast! hahas! BUT IT WAS SOOOOO FUNNNNNN!!!!!!! hahas.im gonna ask suyi to try it next time! oh mannnnnn!! can i have more free rides next time??? hahhahahs!

to stay or not.i think im almost done with my decision.mm.no need to trouble anyone alr.i can decide myself.i think.

aiyahh.kinda expected that this would happen.but how nice will it be,if things dun change.
suddenly,trust becomes so vulnerable.and everything feels like..its gonna disappear anytime.
ahh.i dun like this weird feeling.
and.i really dun wanna lose anything or anyone(including dogs).cos everything's so precious to me!

alright.i've made up my mind.im quitting.hahas.but let me work for one last mth lah ar.i really will miss everything =(

hello dear.friends are not friends only when you need them.everyone has different committments now! friends are like...little stars in the sky! hahas.they're always there! whether you can see or not,THEY'RE THERE! trust me! just one phonecall..and you'll find them next to you k? so always think positively! it makes life SO MUCH better! friends are awesome and sweet!! =)

anw,it was flooding near school today! TOTALLY AWESOME I TELL YOU! hahas.the water was like up to knees? and the whole busstop was flooded totally! the rainwater was up to the seats lah! hahahs! i was glad that i was on the bus! looking at the flood was TOTALLY COOL! hahas.but not if i was caught in the rain.aiyahhhhhhh.shud take pic of it! hahahahahas!!!

i get it.i really get it.hahas.time to move on agn!!

AHH! SAY NO TO BRIBERY! hello! its not gonna work! im leaving once you take over the shop! hahahs.ohhhh dddeaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrr.time to pack up!!!

it feels so weird inside.and suddenly,everything becomes so clear to me.im getting scared,cos when that happens,i'll be super lost.

hahas! visited ah ma during lunch break(5HRS!!!!!) today! and my hokkien is...WOW! TOTALLY IMBA NOW! hahas.spent time playing and slping with my little cousin.and i had yummy homecooked food too! sooo nnnnnnnniiiiccccccccceeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!
oh oh oh! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH! ah ma said sth that really made my day too! hahahs.

haix.i dunno wads wrong but i've been really dizzy for wks.ahh.wad if i faint one day ar? mm.i think i better ask mummy to cook me sth good soon! yum yum!

mm.meeting with my girls last sat was great! and SO ROMANTIC!! oh mannn! can we have more of such meeting often??

i cant wait for trng to start! HAHAS! and i wanna watch 2012 too!

and hey! why are you so upset and moody today ar? =(

i had a great time meeting up with old buddies from hpt today! with old tradition,SUPPER! at chomp chomp! you know wad i love most abt you guys? though i haven seen you all for like a yr,it doesnt feel weird at all lah! hahas.like can talk as if we meet every wkend.oh mannnnnnn!!!! i enjoyed laughing today.i really did! ALL THKS TO PINWEN!!!!! hahas.we had a table full of food.AND I REALLY MEAN FULL OF FOOD.hahas.so sinful!!
reagen and i got the money(we all contributed) and spent every single cent ordering many diff food! hahas.so fun! unglamness feels great! totally!! oh oh! and i took lots of pics with all of them! (cos i know i wont see them often.ahh.it might take me another yr.hahas)

and happy birthday audrey darling!!!!! hahas.i cant wait to meet you girls ltr for dinner! all the talking and eating!! hahas.i hope my cramps will disappear tmr! i dun want it to ruin the dinner!

seriously,im getting worried.i wonder why am i so quiet lately.thats so..abnormal.hahas.though it maybe a blessing to my schoolmates.

and i know how i feel.so pls.stop doubting me.

MJ's totally imba! hahas.hello zoe! thank who?? WHOOOO???

and hello!! who ask you to ask for jersey number?? i wanted to get 15 de lo.but since you asked....mm.how abt 2 then? hahas!

the wkends are finally abt to be here! cant wait to celebrate dear audrey's bday! an all-girls outing! yay!
lesson of the day:they're all the same! but..i guess i would have done the same too?
my schoolmates said that im very quiet lately.wow! i guess..that was a compliment.hahas.
when i saw mine's also part of lse,i was hoping for a WOW,or sth lidat.but..not just mm.
im running out of things to say.and getting tired of pretending.

ahh.homework's killing me.
sunday! to go..or not to go? =(

school's getting tougher.but things with classmates are getting better.ahh.so nice right.
and my econs lecturer's getting funnier.or at least he thinks that way.hahas.
the other day,he pointed at a guy in the middle of lecture and said,"you! the one with the yellow jacket! is this your first time coming to lecture? i've nv seen you before." and guess wad? the guy replied,"no sir! i've just cut my hair!" my lecturer laughed a little awkwardly and said"ahh.no wonder i cant recognise you." hahahs.the whole LT was laughing away lah!

after everything,you girls are still the best! anything else can change,but not you girls! i really love and cherish these 7 yrs alot! hahas.i love you girls!

i feel really upset suddenly.everything's in a mess.

haix.im missing him again.mm.haven heard from him for months.as in personally.everything i know abt him now(which obviously is not alot),is from dad and sis.mm.and i guess you'll be back soon.right?
mm.shud i write to him? but..wad shud i say? =(

im really disliking my work more and more now.and im expecting more changes soon.aiyahhh.jessie's quitting.i'll be left alone.facing her,with all the bees she have attracted.no no.they're houseflies.i dun like cunning ppl. =(

oh mannnn!!!!! im such a bad friend.just read audrey's blog..and i feel awful.i really hope that i saw it earlier lah! i wasnt thr for her when she was that upset.haix.but i've sent her a card!! i hope that it'll make her better! and dear! im really gonna miss you alot when you're away =(

dad still doesnt uds.well.no one does.
if i had a choice,i wouldnt have chosen this path.
im walking by myself all the time.a path which i dun like,and also a path which im trying really hard to walk on.
and im really tired.
there are many things that i dun say.but im hoping for someone who will see all that i've done.
so till then,pls look,and uds.and i'll continue walking.

smiles are nth,but habits now.

aiyo.so many bdays today! and im glad that you guys rmb me and trust me on such an impt day!! at least im was of MUCH HELP! hope that your girlfriends will really love the flowers!! =D
and zhiwei!! nice meeting up! and thank you so much for telling me so much! it was totally useful!! and i guess..mm.see how it goes ba.oh oh! and OH MAN!! YOU'RE A TRUE GENTLEMAN NOW! hahas


mm.some things arent exactly that easy to say.well.i've said it.and its up to you,whether to take it seriously or not.


ahhh! finally the wkends! im gonna slp as much as i can! im feeling really giddy alr =(

wow.(class) outing today was...great.hahas.
the initial plan was sentosa.but it was cancelled.then it became dinner.mm.dinner for 5.hahas.
thank you shengyu!!!!!!! FOR PLANNING EVERYTHING! hahas.im sure the next outing will be alot better!! with alot more!! =)
oh mannnn.really wanted to go sentosa today cos i really feel like playing vball lately!!
and i really did wanna spend today with you.no lies.but you said you werent free mah.mm.it was nice bumping into you today though.dun you uds??
i din wanna stay at hm today.cos i purposely switched shifts with jessie,to go out.plus dad was at hm.so it felt dumb wasting my time at hm.i was hoping that you would ask me out.at least i wont be so bored.and why are you so pissed ar.mm!!!

zoeeeeeeee!!!! HOW!! HOW!! how to say??!!!!!!!!! =/

tests are over...but i haven got a chance to rest since then.

got stats paper back,did..well? but oh well.not exactly impt anw.

had movie with zoe last wed.its a pity that shigs couldnt come last min.mm.everything was so in a rush.so..i din really like that eh.perhaps a good meeting up soon??

it was work all the way.and horrible cramps and fever on sat.by myself.and still working too.how nice.

if i really did tell you,will you really turn up?

500 days of summer was nice.really pretty not bad.huhh.they din end up tgt.but it was really sweet to have a guy lidat right?? thank you for dinner and movie! it was nice to have someone thr to share the joy! really! and really sweet that you were really nice! im really sorry for the mood change! i really couldnt hlp it.its just aiyah.nvm lah.and maybe you can start thinking of how to define SOMEONE LIKE YOU.

ohhhhhh mmmmmaaaannnnnnnnnn.i really din wanna go to school this morning.so tired and sleepy.and i thot that i would go hm for a short nap before tutorial.but suyi(my buddy!) din seem like she wanted to go hm.so i suggested going to town since we had so much time to spend! and it was great that you were nearby.ahhh.i wont know wad to do if you werent ard! and taadaa! the first one to see my buddy IN PERSON.hahas.no worries.she's that quiet.got nth to do with you ar!! hahas.she'll talk more when you know her better! and honestly,forget abt all the names lah ar!! too much to rmb! hahas.i really wont mind if you dun rmb them! as long as jamie's not the only name you rmb!

i really dunno how to explain,but not all girls are like wad you think of.

lots of misses.

AND LOTS OF HOMEWORK TOO!! jiayou!!

wow wow wow wow wow!! i did so many many mmmmmmaaaaaannnnnnnyyyyyyyy things the past wk!!

i met 3 different groups of friends for the 3 different meals on sunday!
it was an early breakfast with sec school buddies! we managed to eat breakfast though we were late! hahas.mm.the whole plan was to have lunch on time right?
mm.i find it tough to communnicate alr.over-sensitiveness.i really dun like it when you all dun listen.
then it was my clique for lunch,and wayne's bday celebrations! taadaa!! happy bday wayne!
oh man!! i din take pics with your guys! it was SO RARE to have all 9 of us tgt agn lah.though we din manage to talk much.feels so separated.we watched fame...and it was time to say goodbye agn! the guys had to book in.and girls had things on. =(

finally.dinner with guoping and friend! thank you for letting me join you guys! hahas.i really din wanna go hm that early! ion was..fun.and swensens was great!! greentea icecream with other weird stuffs tasted weird.hahas.but it was really okay to me! thank you so much!!

i had fun.thank you peeps!

my sister's bday was on tues.happy bday! yay! and it was a visit back to yishun! ahhhhhhh.my darlings are simply ADORABLE TO THE MAX.i love them soooooooooooooooooo much!!
misses and loves.

my new bed and dressing table arrived on wed.oh gosh! sssoooooooooooooooooooooooo BBBBBBIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!! and comfortable! HAHAHAHAHAHHA! i wanted to take pics and upload them..BUT.hahas.my rm's in a great mess! so wait ar! wait till i tidy it up first!! hahas.and i had dinner with mum and uncle ben.mummy dyed her hair,and curled it.very pretty! looks nicer and younger! hahas.

it was shopping ard amk hub on thurs.bought lots of tidbits!! and lots of stuffs! with the most gentlemanly friend,who happened to be ard.hahas.can you be ard more frequently?!
thank you for the surprise(which i really din get it until the very end)! and the chocolates!! ahhhh! so sinful!!!!! =X


mm.im making new friends in school now.really accepting alr.getting along better with classmates,and having more fun too.i guess.
oh man!! tests are next wk! and i haven even started studying yet!! GG! POA's so tough!!!!
weekends weekends! study study!!

no more common topic.
nth much to talk abt anymore.
different lives.

puzzle for many mths..solved!
answer...as disappointing as expected.

the truth is..i've been thinking abt it all the time all these mths.and its always so upsetting.i dun say,doesnt mean that i dun rmb.
hahas.i uds.too many friends.too busy.too happy.
i felt like a total idiot.for checking my phone every single minute.for worrying that you cant get me cos my phone was dead.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS! total joke!
but i really wanted you all to be thr that day.really.

which is more upsetting? no one ard when you're happy(but you guys had so many friends.),or alone when you're upset? VERY upset? mm.i dunno too.
you.forgot your promise.mm.too happy and confused i guess.

but i get it.i wont expect things anymore.WORLD PEACE!

i shall enjoy school from now on then! think abt the PRESENT!!!!!!

i feel that i had a really fruitful day!

did so much at work,but it was enjoyable cos i was finally back with jessie! AFTER A MILLION YRS! but my ic's TOTALLY TOO MUCH! TOO MUCH I TELL YOU! im angry! really this time! MM.im not gonna help her le lah!

but anyways,i did alot! im very satisfied with my lilies today,and i made a REALLY BIG bq too! of 108 roses! holy! it was really big and heavy,but it was sssooooooooooooooooo pretty!!!!!!!!! everyone who came in said that.even jessie agrees! oh man! it was a good,no no.EXCELLENT first attempt!! but but! i left my camera at shop! oh man!!!!!!! i wanted to upload those pics!! hahas.



and i've completed my maths hw!!!!! woohoo! so i can play carefree-ly tmr!!!! yay! breakfast with sec school pals..and lunch with my beloved clique.oh man! audrey says all 9 of us will turn up tmr! i cant wait to see everyone TGT once agn!



i watched the ugly truth with zikang and jamie on wed! it was VERY RANDOM.they were sitting behind me during lect,and since we all wanted to watch but have not watched then,we decided to catch it after lessons that day! TOGETHERNESS AR! MOVIE WAS GREAT!!!! soooo niceeeeeeeee!!!!! makes ppl wanna fall in love! and its better to take bimbotic as a compliment! mm!


aiyah.i really dun uds you lah! so annoying! can you be clearer???

zoeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! im so glad that you finally got it! come on! stop swearing! hahas! life's good!! =F
OH MAN! I FINALLY UDS WHY ITS =F!! muahahhahhahahhahhahahhahaha!!!!!! you loser! i thot it was on purpose lah! hahahas!

alright peeps! happy mid-autumn!! oh man!!!! i want lanterns!!!!!!!

finally a meet up with a friend! FINALLY! AFTER A MILLION YRS!! someone with a familiar face! not unfamiliar ppl from school and work anymore!! hahas.
thank you so much for dinner!! though it'll be better if you enjoyed the food,if you din say YOUR SIZE and other mean stuffs and of cos,IF YOU MSGED.
hahas.anyways..yes.im very unwilling to play all those games.BUT BUT BUT! I GAVE IN AR.mm.it wasnt that bad afterall=) aiyahhhhhh.shud take pic ar! cos van dun go to arcades often! hahas.


a couple living upstairs asked me ytd if those cats outside were mine.cos they want 2 of the little kittens.ahhh.i felt really sad after that lah.those kids are gonna be separated from their mum soon! i managed to save them for another wk,as i told the couple that the kids are still relying on their mum,shouldnt take them away so soon! poor cats! do you think that the mum would say DUN TAKE MY KIDS AWAY if she can talk?? hahas.now i count the kittens each time i get hm lah.who knows when they'll be gone??


she reminds me of miko.alot.
im starting to miss her again.she's gone for quite some time alr.but memories of her remain so clear and dear to me.i wanted to tell you abt her just now when i saw her favourite dental sticks.she REALLY LOVED THEM ALOT ALOT ALOT.but you interrupted! so.oh well.nvm then.


im not pissed.totally chilled.but animals do really have feelings too.when miko's babies were taken away from her,she used to stay near the door everyday.looking out,waiting for them to come back.it must have hurt alot.im really sorry my dear.

wherever you are now darling,stay happy ya?
love you alot still as always.

haix.i dunno why but looking at your facebooks makes me feel...upset.mm.it seems like you peeps are all having fun now.lots of pics ar.but nth much with me as always.
and honestly,i dunno anything abt you all anymore.like have you got a new crush lately? have you really broken up with him? do you have match today? did you win the game? is anything upsetting you guys?? when are you going overseas and stuffs.
but anyways,wad are friends for years for right? mm.there's no need to meet up or talk everyday right? i uds i uds.bbuuuttttt.it'll really be nice if you guys could at least drop me a msg once in a while?? =)
heys! but if one day you guys need someone to be there,i promise i will ya? you can always call me anytime k? i knew that this would happen,but din expect it to be so sudden and soon.

loves.

aiyah.why is thr so much to do?? new ones come in before i finish the old ones.ah.i really really really wanna find time to visit my darling doggies soon!! I MISS YOU DARLINGS!! wait for me ar!!

company dinner was...fun.
well..at least i climbed those rockwalls TWICE!! hahas.i was always the one belaying down thr,and i finally tried it myself today! hahas.its not as scary afterall.i was expecting sth worse.hahas.
and i enjoyed the prata! yum yum!! hahas.


oh dear.its gonna be another long day tmr.
oh well.jiayou ar!

HAHAS! BREAK AT LAST! HURRAY!!!!
ah.even though its just a day.
MM.i WANTED to spend my day doing work.cos it seems like that stack of school work on my table is getting thicker and thicker each day! sad life!
but.hahas.i din do much,completed just enough to last me for the wk.
HEY.but i did alot today k? like eat,wash the clothes,eat,fold clothes,eat,eating m&m(oh gosh! they're totally yummy and addictive! so sinful!!),feed the cats,play with the cats,eat,watch tv,homework while eating at the same time and...eat! wow.quite alot for me to accomplish in one day ar! hahas.

oh mannnnnnnn!!!!!!!!! im totally into scooby-doo now! i mean,how can any dog be as adorable,funny,dumb and timid like him??? (ah.other than the dogs i own.hahas.)
scooby-doo!! whr are you???? hahas.

ah.its my company dinner tmr! yay! food! and rock-climbing?? ahhh.i doubt i'll be doing that.hahas.finally getting to hang out with..friends? colleagues??
ah.thats a hint to my dearest friends out thr! can you guys find a little time for me?? lets go shopping soon!! hahas.but it was nice having friends like zoe and reagen who called ytd for dinner.but sorry guys! i had work! cos i thot you peeps din want me anymore! hahas.meet up soon k? I MEAN REAL SOON!

zoe you asshole! hahas.have fun in obs! buy more gifts,bring more mud back ya??? ah.i dun mind butterflies but no earthworms pls=)

mm.im wondering wads wrong,but i wont think too much.

haix.work,or dun work?? how to say no??? =(

its a tired van once agn.
life's pretty the same everyday.school.work.school.work.school.work.
no more life!
when will you guys have time for me? everyone's so busy now.

and there's school tmr.ON A SATURDAY.how nice!
ah! make up lessons for next monday! but wad am i supposed to do from 11 to 4pm? stay in school like wad you've said?
oh well.think abt the bright side! at least there's no school next mon and tues! argh! why does it feel like im deceiving myself?

here's the post you asked for! abt your note! i keep my promises!
thank you so much for being so nice and sweet! (ONCE IN A VERY LONG WHILE.)
it'll still make my day each time i read it,even though i've read it a million times alr.
especially during really tough times lately,when you guys are all so far away from me.
h ya! not forgetting mr blue guy,who's always ard ar! thks alot! =)

i've been feeding the cat and its kittens for more than a wk le!!
smart cat! chose a great spot to give birth ar! right in front of my hse!

i miss my darlings too.when will i have time to visit you guys agn? I HONESTLY MISS YOU ALL ALOT.

happy 15th bday.
i hate to admit this,but i miss him.
have you grown taller? slimmer? smarter? better?
ah.its just so sad to think abt all these.

I REALLY DUN WANNA TALK ANYMORE.SO JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME ALONE! PLEASE!

im really not having a nice time.there's so much that i really dun wanna do,but do i even have a choice? i just want someone.who knows the pain im going thru,the hardwork i've done.
i've never complained.and i think i can still take all these.just please.stop adding all the awful crap in anymore.leave me alone,will you?
i really just hate it when you get so unreasonable.why does it sound like it shouldnt be your responsibility at all but instead im a great burden?

not your custody means not your daughter? ah! i really hate you.alot alot.
hello.i dun owe you this.YOU WERE THE ONE WHO CREATED THE ACCIDENT.you're a total bastard.

im really tired of all these.very.

ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
starting school early at 830am everyday is torturous!!!!!
though the timetable's pretty...flexible and slack lah.like just a few hrs per day.plus sometimes its just 4 days a wk too.BUT!! I DUN WANNA WAKE UP SO EARLY LAHHHHHHHHHHH...


oh man! trust me! gastric flu is...TOTALLY PAINFUL!
hahas.im so proud to have survived it MYSELF! so independent!! hahas.
acty..being so sick once in a while is not bad lah.CAN LOSE WEIGHT!! hahas.
BUT! its still so much better to be well agn!!


school's alright lah.saw my new class alr.ah.not motivating at all.HAHAS!
and and and and and!! luckily my buddy's in the same class as me! yay! lucky us!! hahas.
work's starting to pile up like a little hill!! hahas.i better finish them soon!
van's really working hard eh.uds?


oh man! our dear grace's getting married tmr! i cant wait to see the wedding tmr! hahas.
HAPPY WEDDING!! =)

i din know that it'll hurt this much.ah.its like one of the toughest times i ever had.

i tried hard to hold everything back.but it all came out in front of mum.in the end,she's still the one who loves me most.i wish he was more supportive.and keep all those awful words.

if only..you know that im working hard now.
im just asking for someone to support whatever im doing now.and know that im trying hard alr.
IM NOT GIVING UP THIS EASILY!

and you! you din keep your promise. =(

*yawnssssssssssss!!* im very tired now! hahas.i cant rmb when was the last time i woke up WHEN THE SKY'S STILL DARK! today's the first day of school.gotta wake up EARLY ar! oh man! can you imagine how pitiful im gonna be for the rest of school life??? cos lectures starts at 830 EVERYDAY!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! gotta wake up as early as how i did during jc =( MINGKU ARRRR!!!!!!

hahas.but today was filled with talks.but it wasnt...that bad lah.at least i made 2 new friends! one of them is a vballer too.both from nyjc.mm.i heard from her that a few of her teammates are in sim too.including the one i dun really like.haix.acty im pretty diff from them,so i cant imagine myself being in the same team as them.HAIX.should i continue playing vball? =(

oh.hahas.cos there's alot of international students,we had to take an english test just now lah.probably to split us into tutorial grps of similar standard?? the paper was totally chim lah! we were like copying from each other and practically discussing how to write our essays too,which i dun even rmb how to write anymore!! hahas.the china girls at the end of our row were even more imba lah! hahas.they used the dictionary!

mm.my first day din sound really bad right? hahas.it feels a bit weird still.but! i'll get used to it soon! EDMUND!!!!!!!!! hahas.thks alot for the msg last night! but oh man!!!!!!!! there's not alot of hunks lah! hahas.

eh eh! its totally okay that you cant meet me today ar! hahas.im not trying to make you feel bad,but..it'll be nice if you could.feels like shud celebrate the first day of school.
plus!! it was pretty awkward being in between my sis and her bf.hahas.
but anw,i got my grandma her presents alr! my sis says she likes them! yay! hahas.

its gonna be my orientation tmr!!!!!!!! then im going to look for my family to celebrate my granny's bday!! oh man!! its gonna be another long,tiring and fun day!


i shud slp early.
GOOD NIGHT VAN!! =)

HAHAS! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!
mm.i wanna be a psp helper too! IF ONLY I KNOW HOW TO PLAY THE PSP! HAHAS.
and i really think that i know which was you.hahas.im still very proud of you ar! very nicely done=)

time flies.my pals are starting school alr.im gonna be....a pitiful,lonely & busy girl.
different schools,different courses,different timetables,different teams.....equals to VERY FEW meetings in the future.how nice!

i know that you'll uds wad i mean.maybe only you'll uds=)
thank you so much for being ard lately and also for being nice!
i like it when you pick me up,go everywhr with me,listen to me,stay beside when i cry.hahas.really!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO! steamboat was fun..AND IT WAS MY IDEA TOO! hahas.im gonna improve my chopsticks skills!!! i'll make sure that i can get 2 fishballs in one go! hahas.

AND HAPPY BDAY TO ANDREW TOO!! hahas.

oh man.im gonna be so busy the next wk.can you believe this? 4 diff outlets in a wk? wow.real challenge.
and my school's gonna start too.i hope that i'll be looking forward.

mm.its august alr.you'll be gone for a yr alr in a few wks time.and i still miss you very dearly.
love always.

mm.im very tired!! no matter how much i slp,I STILL FEEL TIRED!! hahas.
haven been doing much..working as usual.AND IM TOTALLY INTO MAKING CARDS! hahas.i've been reading up alot,so many nice cards from books!! and i've got lots of ideas.hahas.dunno which one to use!


oh.got accepted by SIM alr.mm.dunno if its even called an interview lah.the guy asked me a few qns...and talked alot abt the course....and TADAA!! HERE'S YOUR ENVELOPE.YOU'VE BEEN ACCEPTED.it was pretty abrupt.
mm.i wasnt excited abt it or anything,but i thot that it would be nice to have ppl celebrating with me that day.aiyah.i went back to work after that.THATS HOW SAD LIFE IS! hahas.


i kept thinking abt some silly minor stuffs.ah.and got pretty emotional.thks so much for talking to me,and making me realise that some stuffs wont change.well,at least not that easily.hahas.yes,you talked alot,even more than me this time.hahas.but im really glad that you did.really.


I'VE FINISHED MAKING THE HP POUCH! hahas.cross stitching...WAS NO BIG DEAL! hahas.i must be totally imba!
ah.im gonna miss my carefree life.wont have much time to do all these small small things,wont be hanging out in my little flower shop as much too when school starts.hahas.MY LAST MTH OF NO WORRIES!!
it'll be a total new place,new friends,new teammates.myself.

MY 100TH POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i haven been blogging for a while cos i wanted to leave it till sth memorable happens.COS IT'S MY 100TH POST!!!!! *cheers!!* but nth really memorable happened lah.so why not blog abt the fun i had these few days??

it was FAMILY DAY on tuesday! mummy called me(randomly) to ask if i wanted to join them for dinner or sth cos they haven seen me in a while and they were off that day.so i went to northpt after work,ard 5? both mum and uncle ben had alr finished sakae when i got thr,so w went for cakes,coffee and ice cream at bakerzin.my sisters came over after that.it was shopping ard northpt for the ladies...and it was pretty good cos we all bought sth each.
but anw,uncle ben was waiting outside for us when he saw someone fall.he went over to hlp that guy,which we all did too after we realised it.that guy seemed like he's retarded,or suffering from dementia.you know wad! it really made my day to see many ppl stopping to hlp too when they saw us.like they offered to call the ambulance,the security and even lent us medical oil.singaporeans are not that bad afterall=) and this is why I LOVE MY FAMILY.whether young or old,as long as its within our capabilities,we'll always hlp others=)
oh oh.then we had fun shopping at cold storage.bought lots of stuffs..and enjoyed them at hm at night.my beloved dogs were sticking close to me,accompanying me,playing with me..and watched tv with me till late late! oh man! i had a great time with my family that day!!

okay.wed was pretty boring.just work.so lets skip it.hahas.

today was another FAMILY DAY! but with my biaojiu's family.hahas.he came over early in the morning to get keys from me.cos yiyi's renting her vacant hse out and biaojiu and his wife were gonna clean up for her.i only washed up and went downstairs to pass them the keys cos i thot i'll be going hm to slp agn.but they asked if i wanted to go amk hub with them.hahas.i had nth except my phone and keys with me,and i din even turn off my fan and close the windows too.hahas.totally crazy,but i went.had breakfast and decided to go yiyi's hse with them.but we stopped at my place agn to turn off the fan,close windows and get my wallet.hahas.had a hard time clearing up her messy room! tiring too!
they asked me over to their place for dinner,so we went to get food at ntuc..and picked my cousins up on the way hm.oh man! my cousins are TOTALLY ADORABLE! hahas.you know wad??? they sing aaron kwok's songs so well as if they were like TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STARS to them lah.i was totally impressed and surprised.SUPER CUTE! i had a great dinner,with my favourite mushrooms! and had great fun watching movies,playing psp with my cousins and talking too.OH MAN! I HAD FUN! AND IM SO FULL!! hahas.

sorry zoe dude! i really wanted to meet up,but i was busy the whole day! hahas.

favourites of the day:
"YOU'RE REALLY KAYU LEH!" &
"真的没政府leh！"
hahas.super adorable!!

mm.i guess..as long as you're satisfied with what you can get and not wish for more,you'll be happy even when you're leading a simple life=)
MAY ALL BE HAPPY!

ahh.why am i so tired? im gonna fall asleep anytime soon.hahas.

ytd wasnt perfect,but it was pretty enjoyable and nice=) sometimes you're really adorable and sweet...but there were also times when i felt like strangling you for being annoying and dumb.hahas.

anw...
im not gonna touch pizza for the next 6 mths! (hopefully!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
OUB stands for Oh.Umbrella's Broken? am i right? (hahas.i really like this one alot!)
and i still wanna try pretending to be a tourist someday!
marina sq has got nth to do with the number of squares its made up of,
and i still think that guys,who carry bags for girls,are still really sweet and not unsightly! hahas.
oh.and acty,i dun like whipped cream,hahas.but it tasted pretty nice=)

and..my GREATEST discovery of the day is...
all ics start with T alr!!!!!!!!!! hahas.this is damn cool!! hahas! im gonna tell the whole world still!



haix.working with her tmr agn.but..HURRAY! that annoying girl is gonna be transferred to northpt next mth! hahas.im gonna celebrate my last few days with her! i cant wait for july to come!

it feels like im taking 3 steps forward,and 4 steps back.i really cant hlp it!

it makes me upset.but it makes me really happy too.hahas.okay.im dumb!

every little thing matters.every dumb incident remembered.unintentionally.

i think memories are the best gift! looking at pics we took during our silly trips,on our birthdays and many many more on other occasions...and hearing ppl say,"I THINK YOUR CLIQUE'S DAMN FUN",it brings back lots of fun and lovely memories.i think everyone has changed.and now,i prefer the pics than reality.at least,we were still who we were then.hahas.
pls dun look at me.just.let me continue walking behind you.till i realise why i shud just stop holding on.

i think im falling sick! but i cant afford to be sick now!

i realise that work's tough.cos of the politics.sometimes you dun wish to get involved,but unknowingly,you're already part of it.WOMEN AR...troublesome!
thats why,NV EVER OFFEND A WOMAN.you'll really die like a worm.hahas.


oh man! im beginning to do well at lilies.totally proud of myself.hahas.i took many many pics of flowers that i made before,but always lazy to upload.mm.i think i can make my own photo album lah.hahas.


it doesnt feel the same anymore.but somehow,i'll still get nervous.i know that i shud forget abt it and perhaps move on.
this might work out.


yes.van's spending money like free lately,SPONSORING my sisters too.but it feels nice to spend what i had worked really hard for!


met up with my clique and some other classmates for bbq last fri? and late night horror movie! sth that i've always wanted to try.i made them watch drag me to hell,when i din even know what it was abt.gosh! im okay with ghosts,but not demons,witches and stuffs! can you imagine? VAN SCREAMED! yes zoe.i did.surprising right? but i had zjun screaming with me too.hahas.IT FEELS GOOD TO BE SCARED AND SCREAM! hahas.


we're gonna meet for lunch tmr! HAPPY BDAY NIC! though its prob just edmund and me.
looking at pics of our clique in the past,i wonder whr has everyone gone to? i really miss all thse fun and silly things that we used to do.though im quite certain that we wont be as close like before,but im still really thankful to have met everyone of you! despite all the disagreements and fights we had.mm.have we really got over all those?


am i lucky or wad? to have great friends appearing when i face tough periods of my life? =)

AH! IM TOTALLY TIRED AND LAZY TO BLOG LATELY!
ask me what have i been doing this mth.WORK! which is killing me! working EVERYDAY! can you imagine doing 4 fullshifts all by yourself in a wk,even during the busiest period? woah! but im totally proud of myself for surviving it! hahas.business was REALLY GOOD last wk! lots of customers,lots of phone calls,lots of orders!! and i dunno why there are so many on-the-spot bqs lately.BUT I SURVIVED IT ALL! hahas.
but im totally pissed with mayshim.i wonder why did they even allow her to take leave! and why do i even have to cover for her!!! she din even ask me if im willing or not lah.argh! just not happy cos im doing things for her.i really dun have any mood to work with her=(


okay.happy belated bday to van!
i guess she had a memorable bday.meeting up with so many long lost friends,though not all.
and i love all my presents! thks peeps! AND ZOE'S CARD TOO! you're totally imba!


AND HAPPY BDAY TO SHIGS TOO! MAY YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY AHEAD!
i think its time to close that chapter and start a new one.

mm.a little while more to my ONCE-IN-A-YR day!
when i was young,i used to get really excited abt it even a few mths before that day.
but somehow,im not exactly looking forward to this day anymore.and i dun really want it to come this soon agn.maybe i dun want it to end so soon too.hahas.contradicting ar!


i bet its tough thinking of wad to get me! honestly,i think i dun have anything that i really want now lah.so no worries ar! i'll like anything=)


the thing is...it doesnt matter how expensive the gift is,how grand the celebration is,or if there's any surprises(well...it'll be nice to have one lah.hahas!).as long as i have you guys with me.really.thats all i want,especially this yr.


alright.i hope this helps! but really.no worries abt the celebration ar!


oh.and that woman decided to stay on.ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how nice! i'll be seeing her tmr! and she might be the first person im gonna meet on such a nice day.i feel like pissing her off tmr.hahahahs! im gonna think of many many ideas to annoy her! hahahahas!!


mm.hope to see everyone soon =)

awww.another disappointment.i really wanted to see everyone lately.especially him.
i dunno why.
ohhhhhhhh.i was smiling away last night and this morning.the bubbletea guy was staring at me for smiling to myself.even got up early for work cos i couldnt slp anymore.okay.i was totally crazy.

i was so energetic and hyper in the morning that i thot nth could spoil my mood.kat called soon after i started work.jessie was talking to her abt who's coming over after that girl leaves.mm.the one who's coming over....isnt much better.i watched jessie cry as she talked to kat.and i felt bad.i hope i can hlp her more next time.i thot this mth was bad and busy enough..but after doing the schedule for next mth..mm...i think this mth's actually pretty alright.hahas.poor van!

yupp.met up with my class for movie.night at the museum 2.and i really like the movie alot! i really felt myself laughing during the movie.so nice!! but i was still disappointed then.hahas.ah.and i felt a little bad.cos i could only say hi and bye to shengyu.i really wanted a nice proper gathering.
after the movie,half left and half stayed for dinner.i din wanna go hm yet.but i wasnt hungry too.so the guys walked ard with me for a while.then had dinner(which i still din eat lah).then went pasar malam.cos i wanted to go and maybe have cupcorn.but when we got thr,i din wanna eat agn.aiyah.i was totally indecisive and annoying.i guess thats why i pissed andrew off.aiyah.but anw,i realised that im really tired.hey guys! really sorry abt today ya!

nat dropped by ytd.while waiting for her THAT GUY.and you know wad girl? while talking to you and jumping ard,i realised that the uob guy was sitting opp having his dinner! i was a total embarrassment!
then saw shigs,and met min and zoe for icecream after work.hahas.we seldom get the chance to meet up alr.and i actually got to see all of them in a day! they're still my nicest gang!
AND ZOE! STOP CREATING QUIZZES!! YOU'LL RUN OUT OF FRIENDS! hahas.and i deserve more mcflurry for being the top scorer and giving you the beautiful flowers!
oh.and one night running is enough to kill me.let the old lady rest for a while ya?? we'll run agn someday.PROMISE.

AWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!! i really dun feel like doing all those next mth!

it might be because im tired.so im like this lately.argh!

but i still had fun with mel,zw and jack ytd,though it was pretty pathetic with the few of us only and poor movie was cancelled cos zw watched angels & demons alr.i bet they din know this,that when i laughed during lunch ytd,i REALLY laughed.it just struck me at that moment that i haven had that kinda feeling for a while alr.thks alot dudes!
and of cos,the guy in the lift played a great part too! it was really funny.that he had to be struck with us for a long time while listening to our silly conversations..cos no one pressed the 4th floor and the lift went down agn.and when the lift reached the 3rd floor for the 2nd time,he got off cos he thot it was the 4th floor alr.hahas.he used the escalator after that.we met him agn during lunch.i bet he must be cursing away! hahas.


oversensitive agn? but i realise i know nth.nth all these yrs.i hate it when i had to hear from others.you all dun uds.
i hate how im feeling now.i wish someone uds.
but you made it better for me that night.

mm.its a little pity.the guys din managed to get into semi.they lost to vj today.i heard that they'll be having a crucial match today,thats why i ended work real early and cabbed down.
i bet fung must be real disappointed.i hope that the little ones will grow up! next yr will be better!!


i took the cash box keys with me when i left.so i had to go back to work to return the keys.and i felt bad for leaving early.so i stayed for a while to help out(FOR FREE) hahas.mummy and uncle ben suddenly popped out from nowhere.mummy said she wanted to treat me lunch,cos of the flowers i sent to her office ytd.it was a belated mothers day gift lah,cos i was too busy during that period to do sth for her.i was thinking that its a MUST to deliver to her workplace,cos she can show off to her colleagues.hahas.i sent an arrangement to ah ma too.aiyo.but i forgot to take pics of both.


i was thinking of what i shud say to the juniors,at least to cheer them up a bit.i was thinking of msging alvin first to check things out and i was just typing it(after i left work)...when i saw alvin right in front of me at the mrt stn.he accompanied zaiyou to tpy.so we waited for train tgt,and poor alvin was quite low and upset.disappointed.i hope that i cheered him up a little by telling him that he's my first wife.hahas.jp,yanting they all will uds this.
alright.guys! cheer up!!


tell me.what shud i do now?

ooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
im so tired,but im really quite happy today=)

work has deprived me of my precious sleep time.mm.i started my day like a walking zombie.wasnt even aware of what i was doing.but it got better,knowing that they like what i made.


oh man! they all made my day!


more one day to go! ONE REALLY BUSY DAY!
go van!!!

i have decided to do things differently now.and chocolate is still my best substitute.yes,to quit smoking is tough.but to quit chocolates is even tougher.especially now.argh!

it took me so long to realise,that actually i know nth.but you can read me like an open book.because..im the one who always say it all out.

though my job's simple,but its very draining.like cannot work for many hrs at one go one.cos i need to think alot.well,you cant use the same pattern and flowers for all bouquets right? haix.
mm.if your colleague is one who comes late,knocks off early and often takes leave...you really have to work more to cover her duties.plus if she is one who doesnt do anything while creating lots of mess for you to clear up....I THINK ITS TIME TO QUIT!
luckily she's gonna quit,or else i think i'll quit.work is making me short-tempered.


working a few days consecutively without rest is really tiring.i cant imagine whats gonna happen next mth.i only have 4 sundays off=(
i'll be really tired i think.2 outlets.though i dun dislike amk now,but it feels weird still.its like doing things you're familiar with strangely.i dunno why did i make so many mistakes ytd.so upsetting.

its really disappointing when you put in effort to do sth but it was rejected.
today wasnt any better.
10% guilty,20% upset,30% demoralised,40% hurt.
i haven felt like this for a while alr.though its a little familiar.
my day was ruined by that call in the morning.

tmr was supposed to be my day off cos i specially asked for it.i really wanted a good gathering.but...aiyah.nvm.a few hrs will be good enough hopefully.
IM TOTALLY DEMORALISED!
=(

OH YA.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELSON AND ZHIWEI!!!

mm.i've been feeling lazy lately.though i have lots to blog abt...but im too lazy to do so.hahas.im working lesser this mth,but im busy everyday! always meeting zoe..FOR FOOD.LOTS OF FOOD.TOTALLY SINFUL! hahas.but JOYFUL too=) or else,i'll be watching dramas or movies at hm.wow.i've been watching alot lately.really alot.hahahs.



lets start with the match last thurs.YOU GIRLS ARE TOTALLY AWESOME! seriously,IM DAMN PROUD OF YOU ALL! though you girls din win,but i thot it was a great start.yupp.some were nervous,especially at the start..but you all played well after that! i love your spirit after that! and how you girls fought.WOW! it was worth treating bb tea=) and i was a little upset cos i forgot to order for myself.hahas.keep that spirit and continue fighting ya? WIN AC TMR!!!
to my dear yx...you really did well and improved alot.SO DUN BE UPSET ALR AR! =D
and mich! your msgs nv fail to make me feel touched! thks alot!



work has become not as fun and interesting to me anymore.im always working with mayshim,and i dun like it.so annoying! its like she's always pushing everything to me.super low!



and the vball gathering on sat..which turned into a gathering with xj's sec sch friends.hahas.ser and weng left early,leaving sy and me.so we joined xj and his friends.mind cafe was fun! lets go back someday ya? and have a real proper vball gathering some other day! it was really nice seeing weng agn,after almost a yr?



and wad shall we do for zhiwei's and melson's bday?? a bit stressed this time cos we really gotta have a nice celebration to cheer these army boys up! hey dudes!! cheer up ar! dun be so low anymore!!




im crossing out days in my calendar..and waiting for that day to come.

alright.my blog has been pretty dead lately.hahas.AND THIS IS GONNA BE A LOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG ONE!!

i was busy watching my korean hanayori dango last mth.AND IM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH KIM HYUN JOONG!! hahahahahahahahhas!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE'S SO CUTE! AND GOODLOOKING!!! and he reminds me of someone after watching him in WE GOT MARRIED.really.they're quite similar sometimes=)



just came back from tioman!!! okay.actually i was back on sunday.hahahs.thinking back,the trip was really short.but there wasnt much for us to do anw.i just wanted to spend more time tgt since we wont be meeting up much in the future.

we met up on thurs and stayed over my aunt's place.hahas.i took leave that day cos THE DOCTOR SAID I MIGHT GO BLIND.so i thot that i shud rest more.but my aunt woke me up early in the morning to get her keys from her cos she was expecting a delivery and wanted me to be thr early.BUT THE DELIVERY ONLY CAME AT 8PM.lol.i waited till i fell asleep.anw,i went to meet shengyu and jiemin for dinner at central after that.and we saw this weird uncle with a starfruit on his head.hahas.then nic reached my aunt's place,so we rushed back.left our bags and went downstairs for the pasar malam! oh man! i love pasar malams!!! zoe and jack came over and they reached just after i got home from the pasar malam.so i had to come out agn.bought food and ate at my aunt's place.AND I GOT TO CHOOSE THE EARRINGS JACK BOUGHT.hahas.they left after a while.thks dudes! peiwen came really late.cos she was with her don.then we girls talked in the rm for a while,abt don and him.everyone din slp too late cos we had to wake up early.we all squeezed in the rm and the guys kept complaining abt the mattress.hahas.totally annoying.


DAY ONE.

the guys woke up at 4 i think.to order mc.it came ard 5 plus.we packed,had breakfast and boarded the cab we prebooked.boarded our coach at galleria at 630am! yes.that early.bus ride to mersing was 2 hrs plus i think.our tour guide came after we crossed the customs.i think he's called henry(or is it harry?).and we all agreed that he's gay.hahas.i wasnt even listening to him.i was slping almost the whole ride while listening to my SS501!!!! (hyun joong's band!) but the ride wasnt too comfy cos the 2 angmohs in front of jm and me were leaning very far back the whole ride.while waiting for the ferry,we walked ard for a while.wanted to grab a bite first,but the food thr din look very appealing.so we decided to wait till we reached tioman.

we were separated on the ferry cos many ppl had alr boarded the ferry.i was actually okay.but after abt an hr of the ferry,i felt really uncomfortable.cos it was really cold in front and the whole ride was very bumpy.i felt like throwing up lah.and couldnt make myself fall asleep cos it was too cold.so i went to my bag,got my jacket and plastic bag in case i throw up.we reached the first island after a while ltr.we got off with our stuffs and with this grp of china ppl who were really gross cos i think they think they're very attractive! sy got my bag for me cos he knew that i wasnt well.THKS ALOT FOR BEING SO NICE=) then we realised we got off the wrong island.so we went back to the ferry,WITH THE SAME GRP OF CHINA PPL.hahas.i thot that i would die thr lah cos we had to take the ferry agn.luckily our island wasnt too far away=) yes.finally tioman! and it looks kinda like a deserted island.initial plan was to trek first.but then trekking had to be booked earlier.so we went canoeing instead.pw cant swim so she took a double with sy.jm wasnt sure of how to canoe,so i doubled her.nic took a single.we aimed to reach the small green island nearby.and i dunno why we rushed thr.hahas.i think we reached thr in less than 30mins? i was thinking what shud we do now for the next 1.5hrs.hahas.then we decided to go to paya.the current thr was more rapid and waves were stronger.we got washed to the shore as we canoed towards it.being washed onto shore was quite fun actually.hahas.but our boat was full of water! nic helped me pull the canoe cos it was heavy and i couldnt drag it.we stayed thr for a while before going back.nic swooped with sy.and i still doubled jm.i was a bit seasick agn.and it was tiring! so annoying.i had a hard time dragging pw and nic out in the sea.and got a harder time trying to bring jm and me out.sy came back to hlp us out.hahas.then in the middle,we joined canoes.sy and pw swooped places.I WAS HOPING THAT SOMEONE WOULD SWOOP WITH ME ACTUALLY.cos i was pretty tired.hahas.anw,the guys capsized twice.lousy right.hahas.i bet the ppl must be thinking that they're gays.how can they let the girls suffer themselves right? back in the rm,we took turns to bathe.everyone was wet and sandy so we sat on the towels.

oh.i din mention abt the rm right? hahas.its small and everything's spoilt.jm thot that we had been cheated by the pics we saw on the internet.though we had no space to put the extra bed,we still took it since we paid for it alr.hahas.the window and toilet door was spoilt.cannot lock!

ya.after we all finished bathing,we went for dinner.everyone was starving!! and dinner was pretty nice.LUCKILY.played pool.and bought sotongs for fishing! my very first time fishing.the sotongs really stink can.and their smell's damn strong.the guys were i/c of putting them on the hook.but i helped after that.it was tough lah.at first i helped cos i think nic had a cut.but we both squatted thr for a while,while i tried to hook it properly.but...in the end he had to do it cos i really dunno how to it.hahas.we tried different places and got nth.oh no.hahas.pw fished up a coral.in the end,we tried the 3 brothers technique too.but nth came up after a few hrs.so we gave up.hahas.you shud have seen how we threw out the line and everything.hahas.total joke.we were even laughed at cos the guy said that its no surprise that we din get anything.it would be surprising instead if we did cos our baits were too big for the fishes.obviously we wont get anything.hahas.but it was fun lah.actually,i was happy that we din get anything cos im not for fishing.i would be in a dilemma if i got a fish.it was snacking and tv after we got back to the rm.then we washed up.i was washing up when nic came in.hahas.i think i had facial foam on lah.so embarrassing.but it felt nice,i dunno why.and i was thinking that it would be disastrous if i was peeing or sth lah.luckily i wasnt.we all shared the rm.very nice right,that he'll be the first one i see once i wake up? hahahs.


DAY TWO.

woke up early agn.cos we had snorkeling at 8.first stop was at some marine park.we were teaching pw how to swim.everyone had their masks on alr.actually i din really wanna put that on cos its uncomfortable and ugly.hahas.i think it was nic who asked me to put it on.jm was helping me with my mask when pw grabbed me from the back as she struggled.hahas.jm was having some trouble i think.cos after that,it was nic who helped me.i think he pulled my hair accidentally,but seriously,i was really nervous that i din feel anything then.hahas.water wasnt considered too deep.i was a little afraid at first till i realised that i'll float no matter what with the life vest.I WAS NOT AFRAID AT ALL and could even help pw.ARENT YOU PROUD OF ME?? hahas.sy kept throwing food near us so that the fishes would come really close.ah! pretty scary.but there were really alot of fishes ard.i swam far away when i saw sea urchins.hahas.phobia.then i got seasick agn after floating for a while=( on the way to our next destination,i leaned on pw's thighs.i dunno if i fainted or fell asleep after that.hahas.next stop was in the middle of the sea.i was really uncomfortable and thot that i would throw up anytime.lol.the instructor said i could just throw into the sea cos the fishes would eat them up.so gross.being considerate,i asked for a plastic bag.but i decided to get off and swim cos i wont be as dizzy.i wanted to be near the boat so that i can get the plastic anytime.hahas.but they got real far so i followed.we went far out to see sharks.yes.IT WAS SO NEAR THAT I COULD SEE IT! and pw scared me when she said it was right below me.hahas.the funny thing was,we din realised that we were so far away from the boat.IT WAS TOUGH SWIMMING BACK.hahas.it felt like we spent lots of effort,put we werent making any progress.especially when pw was holding onto me.she pulled me back as i moved forward.hahas.we took really long,but we were still far from the boat.they kept blowing the whistle.i was like,can you tell them that we're trying to swim back? in the end,the boat decided to come over to pick us up.ah! wasted my efforts.terrible seasick.but i could rmb sy massaging me though=) back on shore,he was the only one who asked if i was feeling better or not i think.see,he's always the nice and more attentive person.hahas.back in the rm,it was bathing agn.they let me bathe first.i dozed off while waiting for the rest.i dunno if i look awful slping,but it din matter at that time.hahas.sy asked me to slp more.i woke up after they packed lunch back.i asked if we were still trekking,cos we were a little tired alr and we just finished bathing.nic wanted.cos his reason was we might as well be at hm if we're gonna spend our time in the rm.you know what? our schedule during the trip was really packed cos of him.hahas.must got activity to do each time.so we went trekking in our slippers.we were really rushing during trekking lah.nic walked really fast and sy followed,throwing the 3 of us behind.first stop was the rock fall nearby.we even crossed a small stream cos we werent sure of the route,we had to cross back after that cos it was a wrong route.climbed all the way up and took pics thr.mosquitos were everywhr lah.i kept chasing them off cos many were following behind sy.the real challenge was after the rock fall.our next stop was to get to the other village.as usual,nic was far in front.i dunno why he was rushing lah.hahas.saw monkeys and komodo dragon.the way thr was really steep and there werent proper roads.had to climb all the time.really tiring and tough.got to the other village in 30mins! it was melina beach if im not wrong.lots of angmohs thr.i think they run that place.there were tree houses too.the girls were really tired of climbing and feeding mosquitoes.hahas.so jm suggested that we take a sea taxi back.it was fast and fun!!!! hahas.i think we got back in abt 5mins???? the ride was really fun! i think nic wanted to walk back one,cos he said we had time.hahas.IT WAS BATHING AGN ONCE WE GOT BACK TO THE RM.we all agreed that bathing was wad we did the most thr.we were always bathing once we got back to the rm.
the guys went back to the rm first after dinner.and the girls chatted for quite some time there.we talked abt names to give our kids and everything.hahas.mm.as we grow older,i find ourselves talking abt different stuffs.it was nice,to feel like a grown-up.then the guys came out to look for us cos we took so long to get back.we wanted to go fishing agn,but all the rods were rented out.i think we went back to the rm for tv.then went for supper and watched soccer at the small bar in the open.it was very cosy i think.very nice to be near the beach,drinking,eating,watching soccer and hanging out with friends? i like it alot=) it was pool agn after the china men left the bar.they forced me to play.i always refused to play cos i know i'll look damn chui.but i din wanna ruin the mood,so i played one ball.i know nic asked to share the can of beer,i wanted to drink,but i din dare.hahas.we got back to the rm to catch VACANCY on tv.oh.did i mention that the tv has only one channel and the channel changes only at certain times? hahas.thats the kinda resort we had.hahas.yupp.and i dozed off very quickly.i think i was the earliest to slp.


DAY THREE.

alright.time to leave.i was the last to wake up.the guys left first for breakfast.we had to check out at 10am while the ferry was SUPPOSED TO BE AT 12PM..so we left our bags thr and when shopping at the shops thr.honestly,i think you can count the number of gift shops thr with one hand.and thr's really nth much.I REALLY DIN KNOW WHAT TO GET FOR YOU GUYS.and i wanted to get some food back for my colleagues cos they always buy things back for me to eat.hahas.nic asked me to get bread.cos it was written MADE IN TIOMAN.very cute right? hahas.i thot i din spend much,so i really anyhow spent money thr.and i also bought pills for seasick cos i really din want that awful feeling anymore.okay.the ferry din come at 12.it was delayed till 130pm.so we had lunch first.burgers and goreng pisangs! the ferry came when we were in the toilet.many many many ppl were boarding the ferry and we were the last few.there were even ppl standing lah.can you imagine 2 hrs of standing? yupp.cos it was packed,they asked us to take the next ferry,WHICH WAS COMING AT 2PM.well,actually,i knew that it was gonna come late too.so sy called our agency to ask if the coach would wait for us since it wasnt our fault that we could board.but he wasnt fierce enough(nic kept asking him to scold vulgarities but he din).so pw took over the phone.wow.SHE'S FIERCE.hahas.the guy had no choice but to guarantee us that the coach would wait.THE FERRY CAME AT 3,while the previous ferry would have been reaching mersing by then.i was imagining how the ppl taking the same coach would be cursing cos they had to squeeze on the ferry while we din have to and still gotta wait for us.hahas.i was slping like nobel on the ride.but i know i knocked pw's head 5,6 times cos she was leaning on my shoulder.hahas.i think they gave me slping pills instead of seasick pills.since i wont be seasick if im asleep.hahahas.SMART!
the coach really waited.i think they waited close to 2 hrs.everyone was looking as we got onto the bus.i bet they were cursing non-stop.hahas.slept agn on the bus.it started jamming even before we reached the customs.the guide said that they'll drop us at newton circus.i knew that i told zoe that i'll be alighting at galleria.but since she din msg me or anything,i thot they wont be fetching me.i din know that she msged nic.how dare you?? hahas.we all had dinner there.and sy's dad came to pick them up.then suddenly nic said,zoe's coming.i think i hesitated for a while.cos i din get him.as in how come he knew but i din.then he told me so i understood.so i watched them leave while i waited for zoe and gang to come.honestly,i hate partings.i had to watch ppl leave.it'll make me feel sad somehow.and..hahas.actually i din wanna meet you guys yet.cos i din get much gifts.i was afraid that it wasnt enough.hahas.luckily you guys werent picky=) sorry dudes! couldnt stay long cos of my dad.im seriously very unhappy with him lately.i think zoe knows=) i really wanted to piss him off totally when i got hm.lucky him! he wasnt watching the news.hahas.HEY PEEPS! thks for coming! and melson too! though i din get to see you cos you had to book in.eh.so whr's andre?? ask him to watch out ar!

pics of the trip are in pw's phone.upload next time? when i am not lazy.hahas.





i was thinking that we wont be seeing each other often anymore.though you might have said 2 yrs ltr as a joke,but i was pretty upset abt that.i kept thinking abt it during work on monday.really wanted to see you guys more now while i can.but my colleague doesnt wanna swoop shifts with me.i wanted a day off on sat.quite badly in fact.i was upset for the rest of the day cos she refused.i guess i shall take morning off ba.play for a while,then leave for work.haix.you dun have to do anything.im happy enough doing things for you.covering your blanket,holding your bag...i dun want you to see me.i'll be happier looking at you.dun say anything.just sit thr with me.like we did during fishing.thr's so many things i like abt you.i like it when you care.cos you dun always care directly.i like it when you walked behind me in thailand(you really din have to cos i wasnt expecting that).i like it when you're so annoying.i just like you for being you.i cant really explain it.aiyoooooooo.very bu she de.im not brave enough.i'll turn away if you see me looking over.i dun need anything more.just be in the same clique and..dun disappear.
maybe these 2 yrs is a good thing.at least...i might divert my attention elsewhr.maybe.