mm.we're gonna celebrate edmund's and my bday tmr. but i dun really have the mood to go out tmr. mm.i'll still go lah. they planned it for me? or rather errss. i planned it for myself. cos we decided to celebrate our bdays but ended up me asking ppl out and planning wad we wanna do too? haha.nvm lah. better than no celebrations and no plans at all=) we're going parkway for early dinner and going ktv after that. haha. cool! i hope that i'll enjoy myself. but i cant stay for long. mm. i moved back to my dad's today. so to avoid any other disagreements, i think i better come back early lah.

but i've been having mood swings lately. been feeling down and sad. i hope that i wont affect others tmr. mm. i'll smile=) i've thot it through and decided that all my sadness shall come to an end. i used to smile the whole day and be crazy too. used to be able to hide all the unhappiness. and im gonna do so again. mm. i wont cry easily anymore. wont cry in front of others again. heh. be a strong girl, an optimistic strong girl=) so for tmr, it'll be a new start? haha. start smiling again. mm. hope that my smiles will bring joy to others. cos friends ard me haven been happy lately too. my BEST FRIEND and peiwen especially. i dunno wad else i can do lah. perhaps it'll make things better when i smile cos emo-ness spreads very quickly. if im emo, ppl ard me will be emo too. hey ppl! cheer up ya? isnt probs the reason why life is so interesting and challenging? cant really imagine life without probs. boring. haha. oh no. peiwen says she wanna talk to me one to one. gosh! she has been ignoring me lately and now she wanna talk. mm. stressed but i guess it would be better that way right? hope that its not sth bad!!!

shigs told me abt alumni trng on thurs. mm. im going. haven been to one yet. well, no one told me abt them too anw wad. really quite sad cos i was always invisible in phs vball. even to my pals. mm. when i quitted vball in the past, i dunno if u guys know, but i refused to touch vball or watch ur matches cos i would cry after that. but for you guys, i went to watch ur U-19 ( or U-16? ) finals and national finals. for nationals, i saw how my pals fought in court. saw how hard you guys fought against jurong. i cried from the first set to the fifth set. was nervous with u guys. i was with you guys all along. cried equally badly as u guys when u all lost. i thot for very long whether to go down to hug u guys cos u guys were crying badly. even nat cried. mm. in the end, i ran down to hug u guys. mm. zoe, i still rmb u hugging me tightly and say u love me! haha. but the U-19 match was horrible. im still upset abt it. cos it took me alot of courage to go for the match. i was alone. but i still went. during debrief, meihui they all started to talk abt shuqun guys like how good they were. so i talked abt them too. then steph shouted at me( with her usual ap face ) to keep quiet cos u guys wanted to start ur debrief. well, it hurted and still hurts cos even ur junior dun respect u. but it hurts even more when all my pals were there and no one stood up for me. i left. and cried on the bus. mm. i bet u guys din know abt this. but nvm, it shud be better now lah. lets see wad happens during thurs trng=)

mm.i think i've been busy and too sad lazy to think abt him. but im quite sure that i dun like him as much anymore. he wont be ard for the celebration tmr i guess cos he's in msia. dunno if can join us when he returns. he's on good terms with her. i guess they're kinda compatible? so its gd if they ever end up tgt? haha.i dunno too. just let things be lah.mm.talked to michelle just now on the phone. haha. told her stuffs abt him and other stuffs too. we're gonna gossip more during the thailand trip. im slping with daphne and michelle. ooo. dun really have the overseas mood yet. but i guess it'll be fun!! he'll be going too. mm. lets build up our friendship again ya?

mm.more than 2 hrs back, i told andrew that i was slping alr cos i wanna give him some space to slowly cool down. was disturbing him cos he was chatting with me though he din feel like doing so. thks for being ard for me! so now, u slowly think abt ur stuffs and cheer up ya?? mm.im really slping for real. haha=)


HAPPY ENDING
This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love
Like its forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Wake up in the morning
Stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen
I guess I wish you well
Mmm a little bit of heaven
But a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told. (ooooo)
No hope OR love OR glory
Happy ending's gone forever more

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love
Like its forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Two o'clock in the morning
Something's on my mind
Can't get no rest
Keep walking around
If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong
I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told. (ooooo)
No hope or love or glory
Happy ending's gone forever more

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me, (oh I feel as if I'm wasted)
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love, (and I'm wastin' everyday)
Like its forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Little bit of love

Little bit of love x24

Love

Little bit of love (I feel as if I'm wasted)
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love (and I'm wastin' everyday)
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love
Little bit of love

This is the way you left me. (little bit of love .. continues repeating)
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love
Like its forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

This is the way you left me. (little bit of love .. continues repeating)
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love
Like its forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending