gosh! i've been really busy and will still be busy the next few days!
i made lots of cards! really different from what i usually do.made for my jc and sec sch cliques,and guoping too.and i love all of the cards! though i think not everyone likes it..but nvm! hahas.i had fun making them=) oh man! i'll upload the pics soon!!
zoe came back on xmas eve.hahas.met up with shigs and zoe,tgt with shigs' classmates,sweeliang and martin they all.eskibar's pretty cool! and the angmohs are so goodlooking=) and the game was dumb yet fun! and i really had fun laughing! thks ppl!
had to rush off cos i had to go to shannon's place.mm.it wasnt as fun as eskibar...quite boring? cos its the same old routine each yr.all the drinking,games,chitchatting,gift exchange...and prata for breakfast! and there's fewer ppl this yr too.so ya.but it was great meeting them agn!
zy din turn up for xmas cup=( hahas.but its good too lah.cos i wont know what to do when he's ard.hahas.free shirt..played with my pals agn(after a long long time!)..and stupid dares trying to finish up the food! feels great to play agn in phs=) and nice to see the seniors too!
argh! phs vball chalet tmr? go or not? tj vball gathering on tues.i dun really feel like going alr.and countdown celebration at sentosa followed by my aunt's hm on wed...AH!!! ALRIGHT! JUST PLAY THE NEXT FEW DAYS!! hahas.
and im really at loss now.i dunno what to do abt my brother.tell me what's right,what shud i do? HAIX!
getting ready for true yoga tmr! you better love me more,shigs! hahas.
i'll upload many many pics soon! when i have the time.
AND I LOVE THE RED WALLET!!!!!!!!!!! THKS ZOE!!!!!!
Monday, December 29, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
hahas.zy talked to me 2days ago.I WAS REALLY REALLY NERVOUS!! my hands were like trembling when i tried to type.the last time we talked like this....was FIVE YEARS ago.he said he was bored and haven talked to me for a long while alr.so he decided to say hi and ask hows life.that was so unexpected.i've never thot that we would ever talk agn.hahas.but i dun think there will be a next time lah.i hope that he'll come for xmas cup! hahas.
gosh! i spent the past 3 days making cards.i actually wanted to post the cards..but i realised that i dun have their postal codes from the class contact list! hahas.so i've decided to meet up with them tonight for dinner to pass to them.i've never made cards like this before.everyone has a different card.GREAT SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT after completing them! hahas.and i made one for gp too.posted it to him alr.he's one really sweet mortal=)
oh..gotta go to jill's party soon.dun really feel like going alr.cos jack says only both of us going.i thot that quite a few of my sec sch classmates would be going,thats why i said i was going.aiyo.
going shannon's place tmr night for hpt gathering..lots of drinking,gift exchange and perhaps prata for breakfast? hahas.
gosh! i spent the past 3 days making cards.i actually wanted to post the cards..but i realised that i dun have their postal codes from the class contact list! hahas.so i've decided to meet up with them tonight for dinner to pass to them.i've never made cards like this before.everyone has a different card.GREAT SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT after completing them! hahas.and i made one for gp too.posted it to him alr.he's one really sweet mortal=)
oh..gotta go to jill's party soon.dun really feel like going alr.cos jack says only both of us going.i thot that quite a few of my sec sch classmates would be going,thats why i said i was going.aiyo.
going shannon's place tmr night for hpt gathering..lots of drinking,gift exchange and perhaps prata for breakfast? hahas.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
we celebrated min's bday ytd.gosh! i haven seen lianxin and meihui and maybel for a long long time.and it feels really nice to see them agn.really.i used to feel very left out and distant when they're ard.cos it seemed like i had nth much in common to talk to them abt.and they were just polite with me when we talked.but it feels different this time.i feel part of you guys agn=)
had sakae at raffles place,where it was really NOT CROWDED AT ALL.hahas.and all of us wore dresses.weird.but it feels nice.imagine..a group of 6,7 girls in dress walking tgt.isnt that cool?? hahas.had a tough time looking for haji lane.and i can conclude that we all have a bad sense of directions.we finally got to blue jazz and finished 3 jugs.min got a little drunk after that.hahas.she couldnt stop talking and pushing shigs.it was funny looking at her lidat.blue jazz was really comfortable.we did dares there and i bet we really looked dumb.hahas.it was really great to have such fun with them like this agn.we shall drink and play more after xmas cup k?? and i want the pics,min!! send me send me soon!!!
gp talked to me ytd.hahas.he said he din see me that day thats why he dao-ed us.he's really nice=) i thot he'll forget me after the angel-mortal thing last yr,but he din.he even wished me luck for A's then.if only everyone's as friendly as him.
alright! i better continue doing my stuffs! i hope i can give everyone by xmas!!
and all the best for your concert=)
had sakae at raffles place,where it was really NOT CROWDED AT ALL.hahas.and all of us wore dresses.weird.but it feels nice.imagine..a group of 6,7 girls in dress walking tgt.isnt that cool?? hahas.had a tough time looking for haji lane.and i can conclude that we all have a bad sense of directions.we finally got to blue jazz and finished 3 jugs.min got a little drunk after that.hahas.she couldnt stop talking and pushing shigs.it was funny looking at her lidat.blue jazz was really comfortable.we did dares there and i bet we really looked dumb.hahas.it was really great to have such fun with them like this agn.we shall drink and play more after xmas cup k?? and i want the pics,min!! send me send me soon!!!
gp talked to me ytd.hahas.he said he din see me that day thats why he dao-ed us.he's really nice=) i thot he'll forget me after the angel-mortal thing last yr,but he din.he even wished me luck for A's then.if only everyone's as friendly as him.
alright! i better continue doing my stuffs! i hope i can give everyone by xmas!!
and all the best for your concert=)
Thursday, December 18, 2008
i dun really feel very well today.but no worries! i'll turn up for the celebrations tmr k?
been wanting to vomit since i was on my way to school for trng.trng wasnt exactly fun..but it din turn out as bad as i expected.luckily shengyu and xiujie were there=) or else..i think it'll be kinda boring.hahas.i think the guys seemed to be training more than the girls even when they're just helping out only.its always nice to be in a familiar group of friends,doing things that i really enjoy.no stress,and i truly enjoyed it.
then i watched THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL with shengyu and nic.errs,i wont say that its bad,but its just that..hahas.i dun really uds what is it abt.but thats not unusual to me.hahas.i thot you guys wont go out with me anymore.ah.thks alot for the day=)
yupp.im no longer in her friends list..so its no surprise that she din ask me.oh well..nvm lah=) i guess it may be better off that way too.oh.and if you guys wish to come over for christmas,you all can till do so k? just let me know.AND IT WONT BE BORING WITH ME ARD! (thats directed to andrew.hahas) but if i invite you guys,i will invite them too.but its up to them if they wanna come or not.no obligations=)
i think i might have caught a cold.bad=( i shall rest early tonight ba.AND I'LL SEE YOU GIRLS TMR! HAPPY BDAY TO MINMIN ONCE AGN! love ya lots!!
been wanting to vomit since i was on my way to school for trng.trng wasnt exactly fun..but it din turn out as bad as i expected.luckily shengyu and xiujie were there=) or else..i think it'll be kinda boring.hahas.i think the guys seemed to be training more than the girls even when they're just helping out only.its always nice to be in a familiar group of friends,doing things that i really enjoy.no stress,and i truly enjoyed it.
then i watched THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL with shengyu and nic.errs,i wont say that its bad,but its just that..hahas.i dun really uds what is it abt.but thats not unusual to me.hahas.i thot you guys wont go out with me anymore.ah.thks alot for the day=)
yupp.im no longer in her friends list..so its no surprise that she din ask me.oh well..nvm lah=) i guess it may be better off that way too.oh.and if you guys wish to come over for christmas,you all can till do so k? just let me know.AND IT WONT BE BORING WITH ME ARD! (thats directed to andrew.hahas) but if i invite you guys,i will invite them too.but its up to them if they wanna come or not.no obligations=)
i think i might have caught a cold.bad=( i shall rest early tonight ba.AND I'LL SEE YOU GIRLS TMR! HAPPY BDAY TO MINMIN ONCE AGN! love ya lots!!
i wont say that i had a GREAT day,but it was definitely ENJOYABLE and FUN=) i stayed at hm the past 2 days.been really tired and drained out,for dunno wad reason.
went to get min's present with shigs and xiujie just now.i haven seen him in a while too.and he's still the same=) ice cream was great! i've been wanting to try that for a long time! hahas.banana wins strawberry! and it was fun exchanging our most embarrassing moments! and oh.ppl dun get married in MOE.hahas! lets go out another time soon!!
went to church with reagen and chunfu on sunday.cos chunfu dragged us there.hahas.ok.actually he din.but i felt bad rejecting him all the time,so i went along since reagen was going too.i guess it had been abt a year since i last met chunfu! i've always said that i'll meet him someday for a meal or sth..but this SOMEDAY took a year! hahas.sorry dude!
but the thing is..we all could talk like we always did.EVEN WHEN WE DIN MEET FOR A YEAR.had lots to catch up.and it was great to see him UNCHANGED.hahas.he still talked and behaved the same way=) well..reagen seemed to grow taller..and better looking than before! hahas.no longer the small boy i used to know=) but thats only on the outside! he hasnt changed on the inside too! they said i din change too=) as in how i talk..and the std of my jokes.hahas.but but but!!! they also said that i've grown taller and slimer! which is enough to make my day! hahas.had fun talking to them and hanging out like how we always did in the past.they're like my brothers,my family=) hahas.just like before,they always say that they miss my dogs and wanna see them.so we went over to my place and spent the rest of the day there.I COOKED DINNER FOR THEM.hahas.watched tv and they left ard 11,while i decided to stay over for the night.i miss my mum,esp after all these happened=)
church was inspiring.and made me feel that my decision was right.there are many many ways to see things,but we often see things in just a way or two and neglect others.thats why misunderstandings arise.when you're down,upset,lost..dun worry! its just because what's gonna happen in front is not revealed to you yet.you'll have enough light to get you thru the darkness,step by step,it'll keep you going.
in a 1-D world,its only a dot.in a 2-D world,there is circle and rectangle.a circle can nv be a rectangle for sure right? but in a 3-D world,we have cylinder.look at this,a cylinder is a circle..and also a rectangle.who says a circle cannot be a rectangle? its just that you've haven seen things that far yet.hey.unless you stop being in your 2-D world,things btw us wont improve.do you uds,girl??
i haven made my last attempt.i need time.haix.but if that last attempt fails...so be it.separation makes space for more good things.yes,it may be tough,sad,miserable that we're going thru the tough times now..but the thing is,things will definitely change for the better.so we'll making space for those happy things to fill.
if you choose to end our friendship this way..it may be a good thing.cos you'll find a better friend after this.someone who wont make you upset,someone who wont annoy you the way i do.but i'll still love you guys like i always do.
im too tired to bother abt what others say and how they think alr.lets take things positively ba.hahas.i like it better this way.
oh.min's still in msia! hahas.come back soon and we'll celebrate your bday tgt k??
HAPPY 18TH BDAY DARLING!!
went to get min's present with shigs and xiujie just now.i haven seen him in a while too.and he's still the same=) ice cream was great! i've been wanting to try that for a long time! hahas.banana wins strawberry! and it was fun exchanging our most embarrassing moments! and oh.ppl dun get married in MOE.hahas! lets go out another time soon!!
went to church with reagen and chunfu on sunday.cos chunfu dragged us there.hahas.ok.actually he din.but i felt bad rejecting him all the time,so i went along since reagen was going too.i guess it had been abt a year since i last met chunfu! i've always said that i'll meet him someday for a meal or sth..but this SOMEDAY took a year! hahas.sorry dude!
but the thing is..we all could talk like we always did.EVEN WHEN WE DIN MEET FOR A YEAR.had lots to catch up.and it was great to see him UNCHANGED.hahas.he still talked and behaved the same way=) well..reagen seemed to grow taller..and better looking than before! hahas.no longer the small boy i used to know=) but thats only on the outside! he hasnt changed on the inside too! they said i din change too=) as in how i talk..and the std of my jokes.hahas.but but but!!! they also said that i've grown taller and slimer! which is enough to make my day! hahas.had fun talking to them and hanging out like how we always did in the past.they're like my brothers,my family=) hahas.just like before,they always say that they miss my dogs and wanna see them.so we went over to my place and spent the rest of the day there.I COOKED DINNER FOR THEM.hahas.watched tv and they left ard 11,while i decided to stay over for the night.i miss my mum,esp after all these happened=)
church was inspiring.and made me feel that my decision was right.there are many many ways to see things,but we often see things in just a way or two and neglect others.thats why misunderstandings arise.when you're down,upset,lost..dun worry! its just because what's gonna happen in front is not revealed to you yet.you'll have enough light to get you thru the darkness,step by step,it'll keep you going.
in a 1-D world,its only a dot.in a 2-D world,there is circle and rectangle.a circle can nv be a rectangle for sure right? but in a 3-D world,we have cylinder.look at this,a cylinder is a circle..and also a rectangle.who says a circle cannot be a rectangle? its just that you've haven seen things that far yet.hey.unless you stop being in your 2-D world,things btw us wont improve.do you uds,girl??
i haven made my last attempt.i need time.haix.but if that last attempt fails...so be it.separation makes space for more good things.yes,it may be tough,sad,miserable that we're going thru the tough times now..but the thing is,things will definitely change for the better.so we'll making space for those happy things to fill.
if you choose to end our friendship this way..it may be a good thing.cos you'll find a better friend after this.someone who wont make you upset,someone who wont annoy you the way i do.but i'll still love you guys like i always do.
im too tired to bother abt what others say and how they think alr.lets take things positively ba.hahas.i like it better this way.
oh.min's still in msia! hahas.come back soon and we'll celebrate your bday tgt k??
HAPPY 18TH BDAY DARLING!!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
ahhh! i dunno wad i wanna do now.unless someone asks me out,i'll just stay at hm and watch my 恶作剧2吻.sometimes i would even prefer to stay at hm than going out with others.i think..i talk lesser now.WHICH MAYBE A GOOD THING=) just dun feel like interacting with others ba.i feel really tired.very very tired.
a few more days to prom and my class chalet! i hope that it'll be really fun! and its one of the last few chances to have fun with so many of my classmates! i cant imagine how much i'll miss everyone.hahas.cos i haven seen audrey for a few days,and the moment i saw her after her paper,i screamed and ran towards her.thinking back,i dunno why did i do that.hahas.it just happened so naturally.i guess i missed her.(oh gosh.it made me smile dumbly to myself now!) and i realised that i missed zhijun since the day she left for taiwan.like whenever i go out with peiwen to look for her dress the past few days,i'll always want to ask zhijun along too.like will feel a little disappointed that she's not with us.hahas.and after 2 long days of walking all over singapore to look for the perfect dress for peiwen,i was really happy that she finally got sth she likes! as if i was the one buying.it really kept me smiling the way hm.hahas.thinking abt al these things made me smile on the bus lah.HAHAS.THE GUY SITTING OPP ME SAW ME SMILING I THINK.COS HE GAVE ME A WEIRD LOOK.hahas.nvm lah.im always an embarrassment! and i miss shengyu too! i bet he's really upset that he's gonna miss so many stuffs while he's away.BUT DUN WORRY! WE'LL HAVE LOTS OF FUN WHEN U'RE BACK K!!!
im not exactly looking forward to prom.just..dun feel like doing anything alr.haix.i hope that it'll be fun! maybe i'll really enjoy myself then! its gonna be a day full of laughters!!
i dunno wad i did.and i dunno wad happened to you.but it really made me upset when you behaved like that.i mean i'll be upset if anyone does this to me,and i'll be really upset if that person is someone so dear to me.ok.maybe i guess i was just being too sensitive.
i keep looking at kids lately.i think they're the most innocent and harmless ppl ard.hahas.i wanna get married!! im bringing my little cousins out to shop for my shoes tmr! and im really excited abt it! only to them,i wont need to pretend anymore.SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING! YAY!
a few more days to prom and my class chalet! i hope that it'll be really fun! and its one of the last few chances to have fun with so many of my classmates! i cant imagine how much i'll miss everyone.hahas.cos i haven seen audrey for a few days,and the moment i saw her after her paper,i screamed and ran towards her.thinking back,i dunno why did i do that.hahas.it just happened so naturally.i guess i missed her.(oh gosh.it made me smile dumbly to myself now!) and i realised that i missed zhijun since the day she left for taiwan.like whenever i go out with peiwen to look for her dress the past few days,i'll always want to ask zhijun along too.like will feel a little disappointed that she's not with us.hahas.and after 2 long days of walking all over singapore to look for the perfect dress for peiwen,i was really happy that she finally got sth she likes! as if i was the one buying.it really kept me smiling the way hm.hahas.thinking abt al these things made me smile on the bus lah.HAHAS.THE GUY SITTING OPP ME SAW ME SMILING I THINK.COS HE GAVE ME A WEIRD LOOK.hahas.nvm lah.im always an embarrassment! and i miss shengyu too! i bet he's really upset that he's gonna miss so many stuffs while he's away.BUT DUN WORRY! WE'LL HAVE LOTS OF FUN WHEN U'RE BACK K!!!
im not exactly looking forward to prom.just..dun feel like doing anything alr.haix.i hope that it'll be fun! maybe i'll really enjoy myself then! its gonna be a day full of laughters!!
i dunno wad i did.and i dunno wad happened to you.but it really made me upset when you behaved like that.i mean i'll be upset if anyone does this to me,and i'll be really upset if that person is someone so dear to me.ok.maybe i guess i was just being too sensitive.
i keep looking at kids lately.i think they're the most innocent and harmless ppl ard.hahas.i wanna get married!! im bringing my little cousins out to shop for my shoes tmr! and im really excited abt it! only to them,i wont need to pretend anymore.SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING! YAY!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
WOAH.finally! A'S OVER!!!!!! no more exams,no need to study for the next few mths! YAY! FREEDOM!!
somehow,i feel kinda frustrated.hahas.maybe its because i dunno how to do first.there're too many stuffs to do! but its weird that i had some stuffs that i really wanted to do during the exams period...but i no longer have the mood to do so anymore.argh! fickle-minded!!
the first thing i did right after the last paper was...go out with the class,eat..AND WATCH MADAGASCAR!!!!!!! OH GOSH! I LOVE THE PENGUINS SO SO SO SO SO MUCH! i dunno why.but they're so so so so so cute! hahas.and the monkeys are funny too! i think the movie was great.i haven laughed so much for ages.A CUTE MOVIE!! totally enjoyable=)
went singing the next day.with my clique and some other classmates.hahas.the room was too small for a big group of us! but it was really enjoyable to have so many nice friends ard.singing,laughing and playing ard.ah! but my dad ruined my mood.i really dun get wads his prob.why does he like to pick on me so much?
he sat beside me for a while.its no longer like.but when i look at him,and realised that EH.I USED TO LIKE THIS GUY BEFORE,it feels weird.but thinking abt it will make me smile dumbly to myself.hahas.
i went back to yishun that night for 2 reasons.TO GET AWAY FROM MY DAD.and cos i thot we'll be going to pasir ris park for class outing the next day(which we changed to east coast after that).oh gosh! i love my darlings so much! hahas.hildas slept with me that night.BUT HE KEPT MAKING ME WAKE UP THE WHOLE NIGHT.i would hug him to slp and he'll jump down the bed after that.and jump up agn after a while to wake me up to play with him.he kept jumping up and down the whole day! and my grandma was hospitalised ard midnight cos she kept complaining that her stomach hurts.mm.i din slp well and was really tired the next day.really din feel like going out that early!!
but i still went for the class outing.hahas.im glad that i did! i really had fun,though my sis said that i looked like a monkey with my face red with the burns.met most of my classmates at bedok before making our way to east coast.audrey studied while we went cycling.wow.it was cheap.and as usual,i still dunno how to cycle.hahas.LUCKILY THERE'S SY!! thks dude! i promise i'll learn how to cycle real soon!! then we had lunch and spent hours at the beach,taking pics and playing captain's ball.OH GOSH! THAT WAS TOTALLY FUN! we played for very long.and under the sun and running on the sand was super tiring! especially when i haven been exercising for a long long time! oh oh! there's this really adorable kid who came up to us and said that he wanted to join us.he's very cute! i wouldnt have dared to do so when i was his age.everyone played really well and crazy.hahas.i realised that captain's ball always bring our class closer and everyone seems to really like it alot.lets play more of such games ok??
im totally exhausted after these few days.and i gotta visit my grandma too.so i couldnt join u guys ytd and today.meet up another day ok? next time ba.cos i really dun feel like going out now.
i knew it wont change much.hahas.ok.let things be ba.i dunno why.and wad else to do alr.
JIAYOU AUDREY! ALL THE BEST FOR MUSIC!! WE'LL HAVE LOTS OF FUN TGT SOON!!
AND HAVE FUN ZHIJUN! WE'LL CYA SOON!!
somehow,i feel kinda frustrated.hahas.maybe its because i dunno how to do first.there're too many stuffs to do! but its weird that i had some stuffs that i really wanted to do during the exams period...but i no longer have the mood to do so anymore.argh! fickle-minded!!
the first thing i did right after the last paper was...go out with the class,eat..AND WATCH MADAGASCAR!!!!!!! OH GOSH! I LOVE THE PENGUINS SO SO SO SO SO MUCH! i dunno why.but they're so so so so so cute! hahas.and the monkeys are funny too! i think the movie was great.i haven laughed so much for ages.A CUTE MOVIE!! totally enjoyable=)
went singing the next day.with my clique and some other classmates.hahas.the room was too small for a big group of us! but it was really enjoyable to have so many nice friends ard.singing,laughing and playing ard.ah! but my dad ruined my mood.i really dun get wads his prob.why does he like to pick on me so much?
he sat beside me for a while.its no longer like.but when i look at him,and realised that EH.I USED TO LIKE THIS GUY BEFORE,it feels weird.but thinking abt it will make me smile dumbly to myself.hahas.
i went back to yishun that night for 2 reasons.TO GET AWAY FROM MY DAD.and cos i thot we'll be going to pasir ris park for class outing the next day(which we changed to east coast after that).oh gosh! i love my darlings so much! hahas.hildas slept with me that night.BUT HE KEPT MAKING ME WAKE UP THE WHOLE NIGHT.i would hug him to slp and he'll jump down the bed after that.and jump up agn after a while to wake me up to play with him.he kept jumping up and down the whole day! and my grandma was hospitalised ard midnight cos she kept complaining that her stomach hurts.mm.i din slp well and was really tired the next day.really din feel like going out that early!!
but i still went for the class outing.hahas.im glad that i did! i really had fun,though my sis said that i looked like a monkey with my face red with the burns.met most of my classmates at bedok before making our way to east coast.audrey studied while we went cycling.wow.it was cheap.and as usual,i still dunno how to cycle.hahas.LUCKILY THERE'S SY!! thks dude! i promise i'll learn how to cycle real soon!! then we had lunch and spent hours at the beach,taking pics and playing captain's ball.OH GOSH! THAT WAS TOTALLY FUN! we played for very long.and under the sun and running on the sand was super tiring! especially when i haven been exercising for a long long time! oh oh! there's this really adorable kid who came up to us and said that he wanted to join us.he's very cute! i wouldnt have dared to do so when i was his age.everyone played really well and crazy.hahas.i realised that captain's ball always bring our class closer and everyone seems to really like it alot.lets play more of such games ok??
im totally exhausted after these few days.and i gotta visit my grandma too.so i couldnt join u guys ytd and today.meet up another day ok? next time ba.cos i really dun feel like going out now.
i knew it wont change much.hahas.ok.let things be ba.i dunno why.and wad else to do alr.
JIAYOU AUDREY! ALL THE BEST FOR MUSIC!! WE'LL HAVE LOTS OF FUN TGT SOON!!
AND HAVE FUN ZHIJUN! WE'LL CYA SOON!!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
its like play time once chem p1 ended.i had a great time with my clique.really.it felt so nice to sit at a side and watch everyone play,laugh,joke and do things tgt.cos i guess it has been quite a while since we last had fun like this.i really hate that awkward period and hope that we wont be like that again.but ppl think differently.GUYS AND GIRLS THINK DIFFERENTLY.VERY DIFFERENTLY.argh! i guess there'll be more disagreements in the future.hahas.though weird,but i would rather we quarrel with each other and be closer after that than not keeping in touch.i've always thot that i have the best clique of friends ever.the 8 of them are the reason why i had fun in school these 2 yrs,especially this yr.all thks to them,im able to graduate with so many beautiful memories.so darlings,thks so much! and hope that we'll really be friends forever.hahas.i really really really wish to attend your weddings in the future=)
yupp.audrey's bday was great,cos it gave us a chance to get tgt agn.hahas.making her cake was a mixture of ideas which turned out to be quite delicious! EH EH.I CONTRIBUTED TO THAT IDEA TOO=) making her card was abit tougher.cos i really had no idea how to do it.but luckily there's alot of us,so we managed to complete it.hahas.the funniest part was..after all the planning,we reached her place the same time she got home.so she saw us! and instead of appearing at her place to surprise her,she ran out of her hse and surprised us! it was damn funny cos i saw her charging towards us and i ran off.the rest were behind me and they all ran out in all directions after i started running away.hahas!
yupp.audrey's bday was great,cos it gave us a chance to get tgt agn.hahas.making her cake was a mixture of ideas which turned out to be quite delicious! EH EH.I CONTRIBUTED TO THAT IDEA TOO=) making her card was abit tougher.cos i really had no idea how to do it.but luckily there's alot of us,so we managed to complete it.hahas.the funniest part was..after all the planning,we reached her place the same time she got home.so she saw us! and instead of appearing at her place to surprise her,she ran out of her hse and surprised us! it was damn funny cos i saw her charging towards us and i ran off.the rest were behind me and they all ran out in all directions after i started running away.hahas!
look at them! isnt it so heartwarming to see a group of friends having so much fun looking at old pics? hahas.it feels like one big family! I LOVE ALL OF THEM!
then i went back to yishun.had a great time with my darlings=) look at them! i love the way they stay close to me and sleep by my side.they're my bestest friends.friends who will nv change.no matter how late i reach hm,how often i go hm,whatever my mood is,they will still be there for me.and they're the only ones who uds me best now i guess.looking at them,i wonder when will the next one leave me.aiyo.it'll make me really upset just thinking abt it.hahas.so i better not think abt it now and enjoy my time with them!
met up with my secondary school clique ytd at the airport.i was moody initially.cos i really din feel like going out at all.but ya.just go out to meet them ba.then they all starting talking abt exams qns and all those.i dunno why but i dun like talking abt exams qns after exams.so i walked off after i finished eating.plus someone's politeness made me even more upset.so i was in a pretty bad mood.knowing that u dunno some stuffs was a horrible feeling.for so many years,its still the same.but i dun wanna ask.haix.just leave things as it is and pretend that you dun wish to know and you dunno.ah.but it got better later.hahas! when i played cards with zhiwei they all.it was so exciting and fun! and the guys haven changed a bit.i love their humour! total lameness and fun! hey ppl! sorry for the bad mood,but i really cant hlp it.lets meet up agn soon=)
i guess there are some stuffs that i need to do.some stuffs that i need to put an end too.but i really dunno if i shud do so.argh! can someone pls tell me wad to do?
2 more days to the end of A's!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the beginning of all my fun!!!!!!!and hopefully there'll be changes=(
Thursday, November 13, 2008
THE LAST TWO!!
OH GOSH! ITS FINALLY GONNA END!! i know i shud be feeling excited.well,i was excited last week..and before A's started.but i dun feel as happy and excited as expected.abit of sadness,plus emptiness,with a little bit of aimlessness.i know i had a list of TO-DOs after A's.but out of a sudden,i dun feel like doing all those anymore.there's one thing on my mind though=)i wanna bring my dogs out.and bring miko along too.i think she'll be with us.i miss you alot still.hahas.im gonna cry agn.
lots of mood swing..and im not feeling too well lately too.SAD! but WE'RE GONNA WATCH MADAGASCAR RIGHT,ZOE?????? the penguins are soooooooooooooooooo cute! i love them alot!!! hahas.eh.but i wanna watch coffin more.watch that too k?? its just a scary movie mah...nth scary=) SO WATCH COFFIN K?? hahas.
wad shall we do when everything's over? LETS..PLAY?? oh oh! RENT LOTS OF SHOWS AND DRAMAS AND WATCH THE WHOLE DAY! KOREAN DRAMAS ESPECIALLY=)
yay! tmr's audrey's bday! and we're gonna surprise her at her place.hope that it'll work out well! and i hope that things will get better,tension will disappear..and we'll all have fun tgt=)
OH.HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO ZOE'S MUM!
lots of mood swing..and im not feeling too well lately too.SAD! but WE'RE GONNA WATCH MADAGASCAR RIGHT,ZOE?????? the penguins are soooooooooooooooooo cute! i love them alot!!! hahas.eh.but i wanna watch coffin more.watch that too k?? its just a scary movie mah...nth scary=) SO WATCH COFFIN K?? hahas.
wad shall we do when everything's over? LETS..PLAY?? oh oh! RENT LOTS OF SHOWS AND DRAMAS AND WATCH THE WHOLE DAY! KOREAN DRAMAS ESPECIALLY=)
yay! tmr's audrey's bday! and we're gonna surprise her at her place.hope that it'll work out well! and i hope that things will get better,tension will disappear..and we'll all have fun tgt=)
OH.HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO ZOE'S MUM!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
i wanna C-R-Y now.really feel like doing so very badly now.but i wont.i wonder wad will happen if i let go of all those tears i held back for so long.all the unhappiness and insensitiveness are making it very tough for me.im gonna lose my patience soon.STOP ANNOYING ME! i have troubles too.im upset too.cant you just keep quiet and leave me alone now? cos i dun wish to talk.I JUST WANNA BE ALONE.
i dun like endings.I DUN LIKE IT AT ALL.i dun like separations.i dun like cold war.i dun like disagreements.i dun like fights.i dun like naggings.i dun like you to hide when i need you.you have been like this since i was young.i dun like selfishness.i dun like to be invisible.
when i talk lesser,when i smile lesser,when i cry over anything,when i rather be alone..IM NOT FINE.do you guys know that? i dun think so.cos you guys can keep talking happily without realising that.im still not fine.even if i say i am fine.im no strong person.im a girl.i will cry myself to slp,cry over sad memories and disappointments.YES.IM WEAK.
i guess,only my dogs will remain unchanged.ppl appear and disappear.they're the only ones who will be by my side all the time.they wont pretend,they wont desert me,they'll still listen to me,lie close to me.they'll know exactly when to do wad.no deception,no unhappiness,no lies.no disappointments.my buddies for life =)
surprisingly,and pretty sadly,now when im feeling down and upset,i cant think of anyone to talk to.or maybe i just dun feel like talking to anyone.
i dun like endings.I DUN LIKE IT AT ALL.i dun like separations.i dun like cold war.i dun like disagreements.i dun like fights.i dun like naggings.i dun like you to hide when i need you.you have been like this since i was young.i dun like selfishness.i dun like to be invisible.
when i talk lesser,when i smile lesser,when i cry over anything,when i rather be alone..IM NOT FINE.do you guys know that? i dun think so.cos you guys can keep talking happily without realising that.im still not fine.even if i say i am fine.im no strong person.im a girl.i will cry myself to slp,cry over sad memories and disappointments.YES.IM WEAK.
i guess,only my dogs will remain unchanged.ppl appear and disappear.they're the only ones who will be by my side all the time.they wont pretend,they wont desert me,they'll still listen to me,lie close to me.they'll know exactly when to do wad.no deception,no unhappiness,no lies.no disappointments.my buddies for life =)
surprisingly,and pretty sadly,now when im feeling down and upset,i cant think of anyone to talk to.or maybe i just dun feel like talking to anyone.
Friday, November 7, 2008
HURRAY!! LAST DAY OF MATHS! NO MORE MATHS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!! hahas.it feels really nice but weird too.OH MAN!! WE'RE HALFWAY THRU A LEVELS!! I CANT WAIT FOR EVERYTHING TO END RIGHT AWAY!! hahas.and msgs from ppl like the vballers and even from gp made me feel better. 18th NOV!! COME TO ME SOON!!!
I CANT GET TO SLP LATELY.which is totally unlike me! when i close my eyes,i keep hearing many many voices,and see many ppl.keep thinking of many random things which made it difficult to fall asleep.i kept thinking abt miko lately agn.i dunno why.and it still feels very terrible.i guess im still upset=( im gonna spend lots and lots of time with my other dogs after A'S.wait for me!!
HEY ZOE SEET! STOP WORRYING AND BEING PESSIMISTIC LE AR! NO WORRIES! RMB THAT OBAMA HAS WON THE ELECTIONS! NO CRYING ALLOWED.ONLY SMILES AND LAUGHTERS OK? IM HERE TO SUPPORT THE SKY FOR YOU IF IT COLLAPSES=)
i wonder if the guys feel awkward now.cos i feel awkward.haven been hanging out for a long time and seldom eat and talk alr.when we meet,i dunno wad to do or say anymore.say hi? or just walk away? oh dear.why did it end up like this? guys and girls really think very differently.lets find time for each other after our papers k??
AH AH!! WHO CAME UP WITH A LEVELS?!
I CANT GET TO SLP LATELY.which is totally unlike me! when i close my eyes,i keep hearing many many voices,and see many ppl.keep thinking of many random things which made it difficult to fall asleep.i kept thinking abt miko lately agn.i dunno why.and it still feels very terrible.i guess im still upset=( im gonna spend lots and lots of time with my other dogs after A'S.wait for me!!
HEY ZOE SEET! STOP WORRYING AND BEING PESSIMISTIC LE AR! NO WORRIES! RMB THAT OBAMA HAS WON THE ELECTIONS! NO CRYING ALLOWED.ONLY SMILES AND LAUGHTERS OK? IM HERE TO SUPPORT THE SKY FOR YOU IF IT COLLAPSES=)
i wonder if the guys feel awkward now.cos i feel awkward.haven been hanging out for a long time and seldom eat and talk alr.when we meet,i dunno wad to do or say anymore.say hi? or just walk away? oh dear.why did it end up like this? guys and girls really think very differently.lets find time for each other after our papers k??
AH AH!! WHO CAME UP WITH A LEVELS?!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
A DAY IN IJ =)
well.today was pretty productive.VERY PRODUCTIVE AS COMPARED TO MY NORMAL DAYS.it was my first time thr.honestly,i din even know whr IJ is until today.hahas.the school looks kinda nice ba.very new.
i din wanna stay at hm,thats why i asked reagen out.but cos he had consultation,so i suggested going IJ with him.he asked me to ask jack along.AND I DID.(yes.dun be surprised.im pretty fine with him now alr.thats why i can treat him normally now.BUT IT DOESNT MEAN THAT U GUYS CAN START TEASING ME AGN.cos it really irritates me alot.) studied in jack's class.with a few of his classmates ard.THATS HOW I FOUND OUT ABT ANDRE'S SECRET! that boy! ah! how can he not tell us abt it? friends for 4 yrs alr! argh!
reagen went for consultation for the first few hrs.left me and him with his classmates.LUCKILY IT DIN FEEL TOO AWKWARD.if not i really dunno wad to do.i feel apologetic.but i dun wanna mention abt the past anymore when things are much better now alr.really confused.
AND U KNOW WAD? THERE ARE REALLY ALOT OF PHS PPL THR! when we were having lunch in the canteen,we saw a few.then reagen decided to hold a PHS gathering.he called for any PHS ppl he saw and got them to come to our table.our table was flooded! CANT BLAME ME FOR BEING TOO POPULAR! hahas.i saw anet,saman,janelle,winnie,joel,melson,sherjie and phebe and many many juniors.had so much fun seeing them agn=) oh.and i nv realised that i knew so many friends who were different.this is really cool.reagen said that i was lucky that i wasnt one of them.hahas.
as usual,with reagen ard,we kept fighting.and he's REALLY DISTURBING AND ANNOYING TO THE MAX.hahas.i miss those times when we organised and ran camps tgt.so many HPT ppl thr! im a little excited abt trng camp in dec! love them lots too.no matter how much others change,i know i can still rely on them when im down.ah!
with so many familiar faces,i felt very cosy thr.there was no suspicion,nth to make me feel uneasy.today's such a nice day.not transparent,not forgotten,not neglected=)
i got lots to say! when will u be free???
i din wanna stay at hm,thats why i asked reagen out.but cos he had consultation,so i suggested going IJ with him.he asked me to ask jack along.AND I DID.(yes.dun be surprised.im pretty fine with him now alr.thats why i can treat him normally now.BUT IT DOESNT MEAN THAT U GUYS CAN START TEASING ME AGN.cos it really irritates me alot.) studied in jack's class.with a few of his classmates ard.THATS HOW I FOUND OUT ABT ANDRE'S SECRET! that boy! ah! how can he not tell us abt it? friends for 4 yrs alr! argh!
reagen went for consultation for the first few hrs.left me and him with his classmates.LUCKILY IT DIN FEEL TOO AWKWARD.if not i really dunno wad to do.i feel apologetic.but i dun wanna mention abt the past anymore when things are much better now alr.really confused.
AND U KNOW WAD? THERE ARE REALLY ALOT OF PHS PPL THR! when we were having lunch in the canteen,we saw a few.then reagen decided to hold a PHS gathering.he called for any PHS ppl he saw and got them to come to our table.our table was flooded! CANT BLAME ME FOR BEING TOO POPULAR! hahas.i saw anet,saman,janelle,winnie,joel,melson,sherjie and phebe and many many juniors.had so much fun seeing them agn=) oh.and i nv realised that i knew so many friends who were different.this is really cool.reagen said that i was lucky that i wasnt one of them.hahas.
as usual,with reagen ard,we kept fighting.and he's REALLY DISTURBING AND ANNOYING TO THE MAX.hahas.i miss those times when we organised and ran camps tgt.so many HPT ppl thr! im a little excited abt trng camp in dec! love them lots too.no matter how much others change,i know i can still rely on them when im down.ah!
with so many familiar faces,i felt very cosy thr.there was no suspicion,nth to make me feel uneasy.today's such a nice day.not transparent,not forgotten,not neglected=)
i got lots to say! when will u be free???
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
isnt it just totally awesome that we get to know many different ppl in different stages of our lives and how dear they all turn out to be? graduation day always brings back many wonderful and precious memories.many many.
i can still rmb the day when i graduated from kindergarten.i rmb how mdm fatimah cried with my class.
and the day when i graduated from primary school.though im not exactly in touch with my friends now,but we'll still rmb each other and say hi when we meet each other.
i can still rmb graduating from PHS.the phototaking sessions and service..and my pals who are still standing close by me now.
well.WOW! 2 yrs in TJ is gone just like that.these 2 yrs seemed to pass really fast.though short,im still really touched to have known a great bunch of friends.they're just simply wonderful cos i wouldnt have enjoyed my time in school if its not for them.
simply love my teammates, classmates and my beloved clique lots and lots=)
oh dear.im already missing everyone.missing all the times spent with the team and class.it got me thinking if anyone will still think of me a few yrs down the road.i'll always try to bring joy to others..and i wonder if anyone will rmb me and miss me for that.hahas.actually i doubt so.thats why i was pretty upset that day.but nvm lah.i guess all good things will eventually come to an end.including wonderful friendships=( well.sometimes when i say im fine,i really wish that someone would look me in the eyes and ask me to tell the truth.
my brother can come out each sunday from now on.last sunday,i spent the whole day with my siblings.for the very first time,without our parents ard.went to buy stuffs for my brother and had KFC tgt.terence has grown alot.he's even taller than me now and his voice has changed too.we talked abt many things that we've nv talked abt before.and i was imagining how touched my parents would feel looking at us,cos we've all grown up alr.shamane kept talking abt her boyfriend.zzz.and i even got teased by my brother for still being single when im the oldest.argh.though it feels weird,but i guess its just cos we're all grown ups alr,so now we talk more on personal stuffs ba.hahas.looking at my brother,i feel quite relieved cos he's able to read and write now,and he has in mind wad he wants to do in the future.this is weird.but he says HE WANTS TO BE A BAKER OR CHEF.just like shamane.maybe 10yrs down the road,both of them will be able to open a bakery? hahas.totally unimaginable..
haix.A levels is nearing.mug hard ppl! all the best=)
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
isnt it just totally awesome that we get to know many different ppl in different stages of our lives and how dear they all turn out to be? graduation day always brings back many wonderful and precious memories.many many.
i can still rmb the day when i graduated from kindergarten.i rmb how mdm fatimah cried with my class.
and the day when i graduated from primary school.though im not exactly in touch with my friends now,but we'll still rmb each other and say hi when we meet each other.
i can still rmb graduating from PHS.the phototaking sessions and service..and my pals who are still standing close by me now.
well.WOW! 2 yrs in TJ is gone just like that.these 2 yrs seemed to pass really fast.though short,im still really touched to have known a great bunch of friends.they're just simply wonderful cos i wouldnt have enjoyed my time in school if its not for them.
simply love my teammates, classmates and my beloved clique lots and lots=)
oh dear.im already missing everyone.missing all the times spent with the team and class.it got me thinking if anyone will still think of me a few yrs down the road.i'll always try to bring joy to others..and i wonder if anyone will rmb me and miss me for that.hahas.actually i doubt so.thats why i was pretty upset that day.but nvm lah.i guess all good things will eventually come to an end.including wonderful friendships=( well.sometimes when i say im fine,i really wish that someone would look me in the eyes and ask me to tell the truth.
my brother can come out each sunday from now on.last sunday,i spent the whole day with my siblings.for the very first time,without our parents ard.went to buy stuffs for my brother and had KFC tgt.terence has grown alot.he's even taller than me now and his voice has changed too.we talked abt many things that we've nv talked abt before.and i was imagining how touched my parents would feel looking at us,cos we've all grown up alr.shamane kept talking abt her boyfriend.zzz.and i even got teased by my brother for still being single when im the oldest.argh.though it feels weird,but i guess its just cos we're all grown ups alr,so now we talk more on personal stuffs ba.hahas.looking at my brother,i feel quite relieved cos he's able to read and write now,and he has in mind wad he wants to do in the future.this is weird.but he says HE WANTS TO BE A BAKER OR CHEF.just like shamane.maybe 10yrs down the road,both of them will be able to open a bakery? hahas.totally unimaginable..
haix.A levels is nearing.mug hard ppl! all the best=)
Saturday, October 11, 2008
BAD DAY =(
i went hm on wed.and really felt better thr.all thks to my dogs=) i din have a really pleasant lunch.cos i really dun uds why ppl always have to accuse others of things they din even have the intention to do so.I DIN LIE.
but anw,reaching hm made things much better.spent lots of time with my beloved dogs,and my mum.i haven seen her for mths..took lots of pics of my doggies.and i took them for a walk with my mum.
this is mummy with hildas.
and nobel with me=) oh man! she looks like a cute little bunny!
then i had dinner with my sis,mum and grandma.oh.shamane din have dinner with us cos she went out with her boyfriend.mm.i din know that everyone knew abt her relationship alr.but it seems like mummy likes him too ba.
then its phototaking time!!!
this is nobel on her favourite cushion..
this is hildas on his favourite cushion(me!)
i wonder wad he's looking at.
nobel looks simply adorable!
this basket used to be miko's.but..oh well.nobel took over it now.
doesnt she look really cute??
hildas slping beside me=)
ah! cramps are giving me lots of probs these few mths.couldnt do much except rolling in bed the whole day=(
but anw,i went for lunch with my classmates.had quite alot of fun.cos there's very few chances lately for us to gather like this,joke ard and so on..but i felt quite sad instead.dunno why.
i felt lost.like i had lots of stuffs to say.but dunno who to tell anymore.if someone could stop,and realise that im not alright.if only anyone could pay a little more attention to me.and realise that i dun like all these.
and my brother can come out this sunday.i heard from my dad that perhaps he can come out every sunday after this.but he's not sure abt it yet.i haven seen him for 7 mths alr.actually i dunno wad to say,wad to do that day.and im very scared that i'll break down suddenly.i dun wanna cry in front of him.I DUN WANNA CRY AT ALL ALR.FROM NOW ONWARDS.haix.bad time of the mth agn ba.i dunno why.but i feel that my close ones are leaving me slowly,one by one.
oh dear! 22 days to A LEVELS!! jiayou!!
but anw,reaching hm made things much better.spent lots of time with my beloved dogs,and my mum.i haven seen her for mths..took lots of pics of my doggies.and i took them for a walk with my mum.
this is mummy with hildas.
and nobel with me=) oh man! she looks like a cute little bunny!
then i had dinner with my sis,mum and grandma.oh.shamane din have dinner with us cos she went out with her boyfriend.mm.i din know that everyone knew abt her relationship alr.but it seems like mummy likes him too ba.
then its phototaking time!!!
this is nobel on her favourite cushion..
this is hildas on his favourite cushion(me!)
i wonder wad he's looking at.
nobel looks simply adorable!
this basket used to be miko's.but..oh well.nobel took over it now.
doesnt she look really cute??
hildas slping beside me=)
ah! cramps are giving me lots of probs these few mths.couldnt do much except rolling in bed the whole day=(
but anw,i went for lunch with my classmates.had quite alot of fun.cos there's very few chances lately for us to gather like this,joke ard and so on..but i felt quite sad instead.dunno why.
i felt lost.like i had lots of stuffs to say.but dunno who to tell anymore.if someone could stop,and realise that im not alright.if only anyone could pay a little more attention to me.and realise that i dun like all these.
and my brother can come out this sunday.i heard from my dad that perhaps he can come out every sunday after this.but he's not sure abt it yet.i haven seen him for 7 mths alr.actually i dunno wad to say,wad to do that day.and im very scared that i'll break down suddenly.i dun wanna cry in front of him.I DUN WANNA CRY AT ALL ALR.FROM NOW ONWARDS.haix.bad time of the mth agn ba.i dunno why.but i feel that my close ones are leaving me slowly,one by one.
oh dear! 22 days to A LEVELS!! jiayou!!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
WHR TO LOOK FOR COMFORT?
looking at ppl cry each day..I FEEL LIKE CRYING TOO! i understand wads behind those smiles.cos i feel exactly the same too.so darlings,PLS CHEER UP! i guess its just one of those times when things dun go right.but ITS NOT THE END YET! hahas.its always nice to think in a optimistic manner.
i wanted to seek comfort.especially today.zoe's not free.been wanting to look for my mum these few days.whenever i feel really depressed,i'll always feel like whining to my mum.just like how a kid always behave.i called her in school today,when i was pretty upset alr.she din pick up her phone.well,i guess its a good thing.cos i was walking near the canteen,and i know that i would break down the moment i hear her voice.but she picked up her phone in the afternoon.mm.she din have work today.i asked her if she wanted to eat tgt.she said no.well,she sounded pretty tired...so nvm ba.but i was quite upset lah.i needed comfort that time=(
but my dogs did cheer me up alot ytd! nobel followed me very closely,like she was afraid that i'll leave agn.but hildas..was totally emo and just kept lying in some corner.hahas.cos he just became bald and no longer feel handsome.he's really really upset abt that! and he wont respond to me calling him handsome boy anymore too.
before...
after! hahas.dun they look alike??
he was trying to beg for food.so adorable=)
yupp.indeed i had quite some fun during the weekends.went cycling on sat.but i feel really bad cos i kept troubling shengyu.but thks alot dude! i wont be able to have such fun without him! i bet its tough cycling with me.really sorry!
and i had fun having dinner on sunday with you guys too.though i must agree that sth feels weird too.zhiwei has changed too ba.but maybe not alot.hope that we'll remain good friends for a long long time!
a few more days to miko's first mth anniversary.i'll think of her each day.or..i'll make myself think of her each day.cos i dun wanna forget her.i really miss her still.i kept thinking of lots of 'wad if...'.and i guess i regret doing and not doing many things too.haix.
so much to say..but no one to turn to.
WHEN IT STARTS TO RAIN,DUN BE UPSET.COS THE SUN WILL EVENTUALLY COME OUT.wad matters is how you see the rain.
Friday, September 19, 2008
well,the day seemed to be fine.until noon,when things started to turn a little bad.
i was glad to have company.but i guess im just difficult to get along now.or you just din feel like talking to me anymore.to the rest,you seemed to have loads to say,but now,i feel as though you're a stranger.suddenly,i find it difficult to talk to you.i dunno why too.
but nvm.thought i could rush down in time for hpt.but reagen said he was the only free one for dinner.the rest had things on and cant stay.eee! i was so looking forward to meeting you guys today.and i walked a long long way to realise that there's no 45 at the bus stop.so i took 60 to bedok interchange and changed to 25 to get hm.when i passed shigs' hm,i felt like going to the bridge.so i alighted and took 51.WOAH! it's a one way road and i din know whr to alight.so i alighted when the bus got to a two-way road.while crossing the overhead bridge,i saw a bridge which was not too far away.I FELT HOPE=) so i walked towards that bridge.oh dear.wrong one.i was at robertson bridge.
however,it was along singapore river too.i asked for directions to kimseng bridge.the man said it was the next bridge not far away.so i happily walked towards the direction he passionately showed me.HOW NICE! I WAS AT JIAK KIM BRIDGE.he thot it was kimseng bridge.zzz.but he was really very friendly and his smiles really made my day better.
i looked opp and i saw kimseng park.HOPE AGN! so i crossed the bridge.and started to walk along the river.then i saw great world city.hahas.cos i was really lost and din know whr i was alr,i walked towards great world and took the same route as i took that night when i saw the bridge i wanted to go.took the bus and I SAW MY BRIDGE!!!!!!! it was a few stops away only.hahas! this is ALKAFF BRIDGE,NOT KIMSENG BRIDGE.no wonder i couldnt find.hahas.i like this colourful bridge.but cos i was really tired alr so i din stay for too long.the night view is alot nicer than the day view.wish that i could stay longer.but nvm.next time ba.I FOUND MY BRIDGE FINALLY=)
actually,i wanted to go thr cos i was feeling quite upset.especially on this day.i din tell anyone abt terence's bday.though i wanted to.but i still din ba.cos everyone was busy.cos i dun wish to look pitiful.a total joke.
i need to feel appreciated.if you all asked,i would say yes.
shud i go tmr? but i cant cycle and i dun wanna trouble anyone.argh! ITS NOT THAT I DUN WANNA BE WITH U ALL.i have my reasons too.
i was glad to have company.but i guess im just difficult to get along now.or you just din feel like talking to me anymore.to the rest,you seemed to have loads to say,but now,i feel as though you're a stranger.suddenly,i find it difficult to talk to you.i dunno why too.
but nvm.thought i could rush down in time for hpt.but reagen said he was the only free one for dinner.the rest had things on and cant stay.eee! i was so looking forward to meeting you guys today.and i walked a long long way to realise that there's no 45 at the bus stop.so i took 60 to bedok interchange and changed to 25 to get hm.when i passed shigs' hm,i felt like going to the bridge.so i alighted and took 51.WOAH! it's a one way road and i din know whr to alight.so i alighted when the bus got to a two-way road.while crossing the overhead bridge,i saw a bridge which was not too far away.I FELT HOPE=) so i walked towards that bridge.oh dear.wrong one.i was at robertson bridge.
however,it was along singapore river too.i asked for directions to kimseng bridge.the man said it was the next bridge not far away.so i happily walked towards the direction he passionately showed me.HOW NICE! I WAS AT JIAK KIM BRIDGE.he thot it was kimseng bridge.zzz.but he was really very friendly and his smiles really made my day better.
i looked opp and i saw kimseng park.HOPE AGN! so i crossed the bridge.and started to walk along the river.then i saw great world city.hahas.cos i was really lost and din know whr i was alr,i walked towards great world and took the same route as i took that night when i saw the bridge i wanted to go.took the bus and I SAW MY BRIDGE!!!!!!! it was a few stops away only.hahas! this is ALKAFF BRIDGE,NOT KIMSENG BRIDGE.no wonder i couldnt find.hahas.i like this colourful bridge.but cos i was really tired alr so i din stay for too long.the night view is alot nicer than the day view.wish that i could stay longer.but nvm.next time ba.I FOUND MY BRIDGE FINALLY=)
actually,i wanted to go thr cos i was feeling quite upset.especially on this day.i din tell anyone abt terence's bday.though i wanted to.but i still din ba.cos everyone was busy.cos i dun wish to look pitiful.a total joke.
i need to feel appreciated.if you all asked,i would say yes.
shud i go tmr? but i cant cycle and i dun wanna trouble anyone.argh! ITS NOT THAT I DUN WANNA BE WITH U ALL.i have my reasons too.
finally one more day to go.and im gonna celebrate after that! mm.though im feeling empty and dunno how to do so.feels like thr's no need to celebrate cos i guess i din put in effort too ba.the feeling's just not right.very bad.
im going back phs for belay sch!! though i guess they'll be done alr by the time i reach.mm.nvm! i can meet them for dinner or sth.i guess i'll feel better thr ba.cant make it for adventure and trng camp this yr.but nvm! i shall contribute next yr!! though running these camps are really tiring and the punishments are harsh,by whenever i think back,it seems like the process was really enjoyable and really fun that i din want it to end.
argh! the gap btw physics and chem p1 is soooooooo long!!!!!!!!! when there's no other papers in btw.eee!!!!!!! nvm.i've alr planned to get chunghiang's and cheeliang's presents during that time! hahas.i really dun feel like studying alr.i dun want.
no more cycling for me.daddy says I CANT CYCLE.AND IT'LL BE DANGEROUS.nvm ba.troublesome to bring someone who cant cycle along too.hahas.dun wanna spoil the fun too ba.so..just nvm ba.anw,i also gotta meet my sec sch pals on sunday too mah.dun wanna be tired for that.somehow,when daddy said no,it din really upset me much for long.maybe i din wanna go too ba.isnt it better that way? mm.i dunno too.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
mm.i guess i shud be the first person.but u wont know ba.i guess it must be really terrible to spend it alone.do they celebrate for u in thr? mm.no news of his hm leave.so..i guess it wasnt approved? i guess..he must be feeling really disappointed.haix.
a few more hours to go.a new day ahead.wad will this day be like??
im going back phs for belay sch!! though i guess they'll be done alr by the time i reach.mm.nvm! i can meet them for dinner or sth.i guess i'll feel better thr ba.cant make it for adventure and trng camp this yr.but nvm! i shall contribute next yr!! though running these camps are really tiring and the punishments are harsh,by whenever i think back,it seems like the process was really enjoyable and really fun that i din want it to end.
argh! the gap btw physics and chem p1 is soooooooo long!!!!!!!!! when there's no other papers in btw.eee!!!!!!! nvm.i've alr planned to get chunghiang's and cheeliang's presents during that time! hahas.i really dun feel like studying alr.i dun want.
no more cycling for me.daddy says I CANT CYCLE.AND IT'LL BE DANGEROUS.nvm ba.troublesome to bring someone who cant cycle along too.hahas.dun wanna spoil the fun too ba.so..just nvm ba.anw,i also gotta meet my sec sch pals on sunday too mah.dun wanna be tired for that.somehow,when daddy said no,it din really upset me much for long.maybe i din wanna go too ba.isnt it better that way? mm.i dunno too.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
mm.i guess i shud be the first person.but u wont know ba.i guess it must be really terrible to spend it alone.do they celebrate for u in thr? mm.no news of his hm leave.so..i guess it wasnt approved? i guess..he must be feeling really disappointed.haix.
a few more hours to go.a new day ahead.wad will this day be like??
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
finally the more impt papers are over.left with 2 more paper 1s on fri.but i dun really have the mood to study anymore.i guess its normal ba cos i'll always feel that way when its the last few papers.
im a lucky girl today.hahas.super funny.cos i only read through demand and supply for econ and it came out.hahas! before the paper,when anyone asked me wad i studied and when i said demand and supply,they would laugh and say THAT TOPIC WONT COME OUT DE LAH. hello hello.look! wad happened?? hahas.call me a pro man! if only i have confidence that the topic would come out...i would have really studied that.but nvm lah.econ was three hours of writing and my hand was really tired.i swear i've nv tried to write so much before..that was quite an achievement i guess.
i wanted to go there today cos i guess the night view would be really pretty.but shigs said it'll be so emo to do so,but i dun see why she said so.but anw,i was quite tired too.so i din go in the end.mm.perhaps friday ba.hahas.bought lots of food from the pasar malam with her.i love cupcorn and candy floss!
today's the 21st day after you left.i wanted to do sth today but i din.mm.thats me.my dad also said so.i kept saying that i wanna do this,go thr..but i always change my mind in the end.indecisive person.but im sure that i'll rmb you and i still miss you.
its not abt dislike.its abt fear and deception.i dun wish to be always guessing wads on your minds and how you feel.i dunno wads on your minds exactly too.i dun wish to be laughed at for being dumb as i appreciate the wrong things.cos when hurt is done,no matter how hard you try,it will always leave a scar.and you shud know exactly how it feels now too.
yawns! gotta work harder girl! shud i go tmr? or shud i not?? i just cant get mad at you.argh!
im a lucky girl today.hahas.super funny.cos i only read through demand and supply for econ and it came out.hahas! before the paper,when anyone asked me wad i studied and when i said demand and supply,they would laugh and say THAT TOPIC WONT COME OUT DE LAH. hello hello.look! wad happened?? hahas.call me a pro man! if only i have confidence that the topic would come out...i would have really studied that.but nvm lah.econ was three hours of writing and my hand was really tired.i swear i've nv tried to write so much before..that was quite an achievement i guess.
i wanted to go there today cos i guess the night view would be really pretty.but shigs said it'll be so emo to do so,but i dun see why she said so.but anw,i was quite tired too.so i din go in the end.mm.perhaps friday ba.hahas.bought lots of food from the pasar malam with her.i love cupcorn and candy floss!
today's the 21st day after you left.i wanted to do sth today but i din.mm.thats me.my dad also said so.i kept saying that i wanna do this,go thr..but i always change my mind in the end.indecisive person.but im sure that i'll rmb you and i still miss you.
its not abt dislike.its abt fear and deception.i dun wish to be always guessing wads on your minds and how you feel.i dunno wads on your minds exactly too.i dun wish to be laughed at for being dumb as i appreciate the wrong things.cos when hurt is done,no matter how hard you try,it will always leave a scar.and you shud know exactly how it feels now too.
yawns! gotta work harder girl! shud i go tmr? or shud i not?? i just cant get mad at you.argh!
Monday, September 15, 2008
muha! i saw the other brown cat ytd! so nice to see them tgt agn! but it disappeared after a while. din see it agn after that. argh! must be that black fat cat! hahas. where is my brown cat???
i guess prelims have been ENJOYABLE all these while.and really tiring too.i dunno why but i feel drained after each paper.and i'll slp like free after that! hahas. especially now.eeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! stupid flu! keep sneezing or feel like sneezing.and my nose runs like free! aiyah! shud have taken a pic of the tissues i had on my table during maths paper just now! felt really terrible ar! doing maths with a flu is totally unbearable.
zoe was at my place ytd.till 10 plus at night.she witnessed how i changed from no flu to with flu.and my voice changed too just after a while.its very surprising to see how fast the virus attacked me.scary too.i had quite a lot of fun with her ard here.especially the PORKFEE! muha! (its an inside joke)
value of friendship α change in friendship? mm.i dunno too.im tired of the stock market.(hahas.zoe will uds this!)
a few more days to the end of prelims! looking forward to meeting u guys during the weekends!
i think im going thr on fri ba.time to sit down...and think.cry it all out and let things go.
oh oh oh! today's nobel's 7th bday! but i din get to go back today cos i was slping.zzz.she's bald now! hahas.i saw her on fri.and she seemed sad abt that.its ok darling! ur fur will grow back soon! hope to see my dogs this week! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOBEL!!!
i guess prelims have been ENJOYABLE all these while.and really tiring too.i dunno why but i feel drained after each paper.and i'll slp like free after that! hahas. especially now.eeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! stupid flu! keep sneezing or feel like sneezing.and my nose runs like free! aiyah! shud have taken a pic of the tissues i had on my table during maths paper just now! felt really terrible ar! doing maths with a flu is totally unbearable.
zoe was at my place ytd.till 10 plus at night.she witnessed how i changed from no flu to with flu.and my voice changed too just after a while.its very surprising to see how fast the virus attacked me.scary too.i had quite a lot of fun with her ard here.especially the PORKFEE! muha! (its an inside joke)
value of friendship α change in friendship? mm.i dunno too.im tired of the stock market.(hahas.zoe will uds this!)
a few more days to the end of prelims! looking forward to meeting u guys during the weekends!
i think im going thr on fri ba.time to sit down...and think.cry it all out and let things go.
oh oh oh! today's nobel's 7th bday! but i din get to go back today cos i was slping.zzz.she's bald now! hahas.i saw her on fri.and she seemed sad abt that.its ok darling! ur fur will grow back soon! hope to see my dogs this week! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOBEL!!!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
i feel like the brown cat downstairs.
i dunno how to describe how im feeling now.just...empty.and abit sad ba.
prelims have been going on for the past week.a few more days to go.so i guess i'll try my best to work hard and get through it ba.jiayou! (though its totally demoralizing.hahas)
tmr is mid-autumn festival.i met up with zoe and shigs just now.zoe gave us mooncakes and lanterns.rather gay.but thks for the thought dude! hahas.really wanna celebrate tmr! errs.though i dun celebrate it usually...but i just felt like doing so suddenly.
i guess i know wad i wanna do on fri after the papers alr.or maybe thurs ba.hahas.see how first ba.
lots of mood swings,mixed feelings,unhappiness,memories,misses...
i thought you would be there when the rest turn their backs on me.
i dunno how to describe how im feeling now.just...empty.and abit sad ba.
prelims have been going on for the past week.a few more days to go.so i guess i'll try my best to work hard and get through it ba.jiayou! (though its totally demoralizing.hahas)
tmr is mid-autumn festival.i met up with zoe and shigs just now.zoe gave us mooncakes and lanterns.rather gay.but thks for the thought dude! hahas.really wanna celebrate tmr! errs.though i dun celebrate it usually...but i just felt like doing so suddenly.
i guess i know wad i wanna do on fri after the papers alr.or maybe thurs ba.hahas.see how first ba.
lots of mood swings,mixed feelings,unhappiness,memories,misses...
i thought you would be there when the rest turn their backs on me.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
today is not a very good day either. but oh well, i guess i shud just leave all these behind till i have more time to think abt them ba.
daddy gave me this just now. he said terence drew it. hahas. nice isnt it? im glad that he's learning well in there. and really hope that he'll continue to do so. daddy says he cant confirm if terence will be granted home leave. im sure he'll be really upset and disappointed if he's not granted that. cos he has been talking abt it for the past few mths. and i guess he still doesnt know abt miko. cos gillian has not sent her letter to him yet. i wonder wads gonna happen next. haix.
and i still miss you alot.
and i miss my nobel and hildas too! hope that i can find some time during the prelims period to go back to see them.
hahas.i simply love my darlings so much! looking at them will always brighten up my day.
why is it so tough to be angry at you?
muha! AH! I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW=)
prelims are starting tmr and everyone's studying hard. ah. all the best ppl! JIAYOU!!
daddy gave me this just now. he said terence drew it. hahas. nice isnt it? im glad that he's learning well in there. and really hope that he'll continue to do so. daddy says he cant confirm if terence will be granted home leave. im sure he'll be really upset and disappointed if he's not granted that. cos he has been talking abt it for the past few mths. and i guess he still doesnt know abt miko. cos gillian has not sent her letter to him yet. i wonder wads gonna happen next. haix.
and i still miss you alot.
and i miss my nobel and hildas too! hope that i can find some time during the prelims period to go back to see them.
hahas.i simply love my darlings so much! looking at them will always brighten up my day.
why is it so tough to be angry at you?
muha! AH! I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW=)
prelims are starting tmr and everyone's studying hard. ah. all the best ppl! JIAYOU!!
Friday, September 5, 2008
I DUN LIKE THIS.
call me unreasonable or wad, i just dun like this. i dun like how im feeling now. how can i make myself feel better? haix.
feels like im all alone.everyone's just too busy studying i guess. i dun blame them for that and i uds that.so why am i feeling like this?
i feel like going out. been at hm for the past few days and im decomposing real soon! luckily zoe's free to meet tmr. or else i'll be super low i guess. well,i din ask u out to study cos i know i'll be super restless and i dun wish to disrupt ur plans agn. and u seem rather busy too.so i guess its better not to disturb u ba. u jiayou ar! dun stress k? relax!=)
im so looking forward to tmr! finally getting out of hm. and airport! been wanting to go thr for a few days alr! yay!
and i heard that my dear nobel seems to have some kinda skin infection. take care darling! i'll come back to see you soon!!
and i still miss you alot =(
feels like im all alone.everyone's just too busy studying i guess. i dun blame them for that and i uds that.so why am i feeling like this?
i feel like going out. been at hm for the past few days and im decomposing real soon! luckily zoe's free to meet tmr. or else i'll be super low i guess. well,i din ask u out to study cos i know i'll be super restless and i dun wish to disrupt ur plans agn. and u seem rather busy too.so i guess its better not to disturb u ba. u jiayou ar! dun stress k? relax!=)
im so looking forward to tmr! finally getting out of hm. and airport! been wanting to go thr for a few days alr! yay!
and i heard that my dear nobel seems to have some kinda skin infection. take care darling! i'll come back to see you soon!!
and i still miss you alot =(
Thursday, September 4, 2008
HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!
eee!!!!!! feels like i've studied ALOT today(as compared to my own standards.hahas)! integration is driving me nuts! i dun wanna do alr lah! i give up!! all the numbers are giving a great headache! very tedious and tiring lah! eeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dun wanna stay at hm tmr.but zoe's not free=( will be meeting her on sat then! but wad shall i do and whr shud i go tmr???? eeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so bored now! who can entertain me?? today's just a restless and hyper day for me.i cant seem to settle down on sth for more than 20mins.argh!
rainy day.rainy mood.rainy me.i miss you alot alot alot!
lots of misses and loves still.
i dun wanna stay at hm tmr.but zoe's not free=( will be meeting her on sat then! but wad shall i do and whr shud i go tmr???? eeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so bored now! who can entertain me?? today's just a restless and hyper day for me.i cant seem to settle down on sth for more than 20mins.argh!
rainy day.rainy mood.rainy me.i miss you alot alot alot!
lots of misses and loves still.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
SEVENTH DAY.
a week ago,my beloved miko passed away. there hasnt been a day or night which i wont think of her. sometimes i'll even cry myself to slp. i just cant control but cry when i get reminded of her. hahas. it just happened too soon. it felt like a dream. and i really hope that my alarm clock will go off and wake me up from it. but i guess...it wont ring ba.
yes.thank you minmin. I AM SAD.hahas.but i think i shud be okay ba.just that sometimes,when i miss her really too much,i...will get upset.but im still ok ar! so no worries=)
this is weird.but actually im glad that im still crying over her death.cos it means that she really meant sth to me and i have not got over her so easily.
honestly,i really miss her alot.and my mood's just really heavy today.i dreamt of her last night.dreamt that she was at home but no one could see her except for me.I was really happy to see her agn,though it wasnt real.hahas.
despite all misses and tears,everyday life must still go on isnt it? so..i shall try to take it easy ba.
ok! forget all the unhappiness now.hey! let's go shopping after my prelims!!!!! okok??? hope to see u all real soon!
lots of misses=)
yes.thank you minmin. I AM SAD.hahas.but i think i shud be okay ba.just that sometimes,when i miss her really too much,i...will get upset.but im still ok ar! so no worries=)
this is weird.but actually im glad that im still crying over her death.cos it means that she really meant sth to me and i have not got over her so easily.
honestly,i really miss her alot.and my mood's just really heavy today.i dreamt of her last night.dreamt that she was at home but no one could see her except for me.I was really happy to see her agn,though it wasnt real.hahas.
despite all misses and tears,everyday life must still go on isnt it? so..i shall try to take it easy ba.
ok! forget all the unhappiness now.hey! let's go shopping after my prelims!!!!! okok??? hope to see u all real soon!
lots of misses=)
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