ah! i got back my PW results ytd!! i got A!!!! haha. i was expecting a C or at most a B. but actually TJ has got 87.2% 'A's. so i was just lucky to get it. i told myself that if i could get a 'B', i would be a vegetarian for 5 days. mm. looking at my results, i think im more than willing to do so. haha=) my first 'A'! hopefully its not the only A. looking at how disappointed some ppl were cos they din manage to get it, i felt bad. i think i din really deserve it. out of 28 classes, 13 scored full distinctions. my class had 1 B only and shig's class got 2 Bs. including both of our classes, we alr occupied more than half of the As. which means that other classes wld have more Bs. though the results were not evenly distributed, but as a whole, we did so much better than last yr when there were only 7.1% As. continue to do well TJ! went with my class to pastamania in parkway aft that to celebrate. unintentionally, i looked at him a few times. and he saw that. i looked away. i guess he thot that i was trying to look at him. but i wasnt. i had trng so i rushed back aft that.

training ytd was quite ok. serena was sick. mr fung had to be thr for sports heat and came late. he gave instructions and i kinda took over trng aft that. warmed up. spiked. then started to play match. i did the allocation of ppl. shengyu, JP and chunkiat joined our trng. i got yanting and chunkiat to play center, JP and meiyan as open, shengyu as setter, elysia as subset, yixian as libero. i told junping and daphne that they'll play in the next set. i felt so bad. then mr fung came back. he settled the 2nd set. but din put daphne in. i felt real bad cos i wanted to put daphne in for that set. i told shig that. and she was like "u shudnt put the 1st set like that. shud put dap instead of meiyan or JP one." i told her that i put JP cos he can act like zoe. cos we need a stronger open player. then she was like shud put dap instead of meiyan. hey! actually i was pretty annoyed. i din see wad was wrong abt the 1st set. can u just trust me? mr fung wld always put meiyan in one. daphne wld come in the nxt set. i believe that he wld have done the same thing too. i know she wants to hlp to take charge of trng too, cos we're one of the more senior. but i just felt that she shud at least respect my decision. ok. just ignore me. i wasnt really in a gd mood too.
9 of us went opp for dinner aft trng. had chu chao. it was pretty cool cos we nv squeezed so many ppl in a table tgt before. and i was so glad that we're getting better as a team. discussed wad to get as a team too. was super cool lah cos those TJcians who walked past us wld look at us like ' wah, the vball team's so bonded. so cool to eat like that'. i felt proud to be in my team.

today's trng was pretty ok too. serena's back! wanyang,isabella and lihui came over to play match with us. made trng pretty high. but my knees hurt. really. esp when running. cos the impact of bending my knees was kinda strong. and my wrist too. my back's starting to give me probs too. but i'll hang on thr. till when competition is over, im gonna see a physician and rest well to heal.

he was thr for my trng ytd. he din play. sat outside hall to look at the heats most of the time. i think he was looking at her too. mm. it din hurt me too much. is it a gd thing? when we were on the way to parkway, we took a double deck bus. mm. zhijun and her clique went up. he went up too. but all of his clique was below. peiwen and i went up some time ltr. he was sitting thr alone. looked rather emo. i heard that her class din do well for PW. i guess she was sad and he was worried. thats why he stayed for the heats? haha=) why am i always so sensitive? but he hasnt msged me for some time alr. he did a few days back. because of her. cruel isnt it? rather hurtful too. but sometimes, this is wad happens when u try to be honest.

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me,
I laugh 'cause It's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The Only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do
He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

and i hate my dad. he's really annoying. i hate it whenever he complains how living here with him has caused him so much trouble. and he's always so paranoid over everything. can he open his eyes and see my mood first before trying to pick on anything i do? stay off! i haven shown my temper yet. but i wld soon. if he's still so insensitive and blame me for everything. im a grown up. i know wad im doing. shut up if im not doing the wrong thing. stop complaining abt things that im not doing ur way. its not wrong, just different from u. get it? we haven stayed tgt for a couple of yrs. u have ur lifestyle and i have mine. i dun like it when i have to change to adapt urs. u need to be more flexible and less stubborn. or u'll forever end up fighting with others. who hasnt quarreled with him? i cant think of any. cant u just live in peace and stop picking a fight?

if in the past, i wld have complained all these to him. so much have changed. like i wld talk abt him to my friends all the time, but now, i dun feel like talking much abt him. and i've got nth much to say too. heard that he's going for the vball thailand trip. i was ctually considering whether to go not. now that he's going, i really gotta reconsider. its not because of him that im going. its the team.

anw,haha=) my results for March CT sucks! thats wad u get if u dun study. and im gonna fail the recent chem test. gosh! i gotta do well for maths test next wk! study hard girl! dun let others(esp Mrs Chua) look down on u!

next wk's an exciting one. Competition is here! fight hard TJVB!!!