oh no! im screwed! i forgot that there's physics mock spa tmr! got so much to memorise. and i doubt i'll pass it anw. it's so tough! skill A! gotta start soon. after blogging. haha=)

oh gosh! i just wanna say that i failed. the deadline for one mth is gonna be up in 2 days. and the feeling is still there. cos we haven talked for a long while, i msged him ytd to ask abt his match. i was damn scared that he'll shut me up like the other time by saying gd night. it took me a lot of courage to send him the msg. but i still did anw. thk goodness! we talked like normal. for pretty long. i was overjoyed. haha=) but i was disappointed this morning cos i realised sth saddening.cos peiwen started her competition today. she was telling the guys that she was damn scared the day before. shengyu,andrew and him sent her msgs to encourage her.i was walking to class from sports com with the guys when they all realised that all of them sent her msgs. but none of them sent to me. i was damn scared last thurs too cos of my fri match. i practically told the whole world how scared and nervous i was lah. but none msged me. errss..shengyu sorta did lah. but the rest din. i was sad. esp when he din msg me. its like im not as significant as peiwen. that day, i really thot that he wld wish me luck. i really needed him to do so. but he din. now i realised that he actually msged her. sad. sad. very sad. lol. the highness from msging him last night disappeared. i was really disappointed. cos of him. and my mum who din turn up. haix. see! ppl take me for granted again. i needed the encouragement from my clique that day. none did so. i guess they thot that it wasnt that impt to me. haix. nvm lah. at least they came for my match.

today i spent quite a lot of time with him. cos we were excused from pe. mr fung asked us to practise service. but we ended up slacking. i was talking to yenberg the whole time in the outdoor court. then he left and i went to watch video with shengyu annd him on the guys match with vj. then we went for lessons tgt. oh no! i flunked my maths test like siao. 5 out of 20. mr low was disappointed. not only with me. but some others too cos quite a handful failed. he called us out one by one to talk. audrey was before me. she came in crying. scare me. i took tissue out in case i cry too. haha. luckily it was ok lah. i din cry and promise to do better next test. while in class, thinking abt the msg incident made me sad again. haix. i left with the guys for their match. i was sitting in front of yenberg and aloysius. it wasnt because i was eavesdropping lah. but they were loud. so at times i interfered a bit. yenberg was very funny. he was like, eh dun eavesdrop lah. haha=) we reached there super early. and the earlier matches were SUPER BORING! aj played with tpjc for super long. ny guys came in and sat in front of serena, meiyan and me. melvin was sitting in front of me. cos we sorta know each other, we talked a bit. then guoxiong came over and told melvin,eh 你来打比赛就好，不要flirt我学校的girls hor. then he turned to me and said that HE was pissed. haha. i know he was kidding. as in why will HE be pissed? but it was kinda nice to think that it was true. if only it was.

haha=) he msged me to wish me luck. cos i kept complaining just now that they din msg me. talked for some time. ah! how nice would it be if we could be like this all the time? his ankle still hurts. he's gotta stop vball for 1 wk. to recover. rest well ya? though he's not gonna play for this round, but im still gonna go for all his matches no matter what. even if he's not coming for all of mine. but he's coming tmr! im gonna play well tmr! CONFIDENCE! IM GONNA WIN MI!!!