STOP ANNOYING ME!!!!

i dun usually scold vulgarities. but fuck off. im really pissed with my dad this time. i've been tolerating with his nonsense for the past few days. but today was max. cos my sisters came over to stay for a couple of days. he wld always make me do things for them. im fine with it. but he actually said that i was selfish. fuck. i was using the lamp to treat my knee cos it really hurts lately. my sis wanted to slp alr (they were sleeping in my rm cos my dad wants us to slp with the air con. usually when im alone, i dun use the air con). so he was like,'dun use the lamp alr. makes the rm very hot. i wanna turn on the air con alr.' i was like let me use it for another 30 mins first cos i just used it only. he said,' then ur sis slp without aircon lah. no. stop using it. or use it outside.' fuck. it is my rm and i cant use it thr? but nvm. i turned it off and continued doing my work. then he asked me to do my work outside cos he doesnt want me to disturb my sis. i was like hello. i was doing my work and not affecting her in any way. he said,'no. i dun like this. either u get out thr or u dun do ur work at all.' fuck. initially i refused cos i think it was damn unreasonable. he said i was selfish. cos i slept earlier on and no one disturbed me and yet i was disturbing my sis. now it really got me pissed. these few days i hlped to wash their clothes, shared my rm, do this and that and i haven complained a bit. now he's refusing to let me do my stuffs in my rm and scolded me selfish. fuck. wad is this? i couldnt take it alr and started arguing with him. i was like all these while i've been doing things for them and giving in. now i cant even do my work in the rm? and cannot use the lamp when my knee hurts like mad and i got comp tmr? i asked who was the selfish one here. then i left my rm. he din have much to say. he asked my sis to hang the clothes from the washing machine cos he said i was being calculating and keep complaining abt everything i gotta do. i couldnt be bothered with him.

i called zoe just now. andre said that tmr shakir,jack and he will be having hockey comp at 3 in ccab too! so mayb can watch us play. gosh! this is DAMN COOL! cant believe that we're actually meeting thr cos of diff sports! so qiao! same day! haha. i wanted to tell her abt my dad too. but it was inconvenient cos he was ard. so i said i'll tell her tmr. i wanted to tell someone so badly! nvm! im so looking forward to tmr too!!

the guys had their first match against VJ today. they won 2:0. he was injured. sprained his ankle 2 wks back and haven recovered yet. i cheered for everyone. but hesitated if i shud shout out his name. the second set, he lost a few pts in a row. i shouted for him. shigs looked at me. haha. i really wanted to cheer for him then. i was pretty hungry. went for prata with alvin,JP,michelle and daphne. the guys came over ltr. he came even ltr. the prata house was filled. he managed to get a chair and sat btw shengyu and me. i quickly finished my food cos i wanted to give my seat to the guys who came ltr. JP refused to let me leave initially cos it wasnt often that we sit tgt. i din care. and insisted in leaving. mich and daph left first. i then left with alvin and Jp. ok. im useless. im always running away. trying to keep a distance from him yet i want him near me. wads my prob? when he comes close, i 'll leave. when he's away, i want him ard. haix. i asked shengyu if he was upset abt the game. he said no. so i din msg him to cheer him on. damn dumb isnt it? cant i ask him myself? haix.

anw, TMR'S MY MATCH! IT'S FINALLY HERE! oh gosh! im damn nervous now. super. playing against zoe tmr! haix. i played so badly last trng. im super scared that i cant play tmr. and he'll be there tmr. gosh! damn sad. damn stressed. cos he'll be seeing me play. but i cant afford to play badly or be off form. i gotta bring the team up. haix. no matter how badly i play tmr, i cannot show the disappointment. must continue cheering. bring the morale higher. but im pretty worried abt my knee. it really hurts. i cant even run lah. im afraid if i land badly tmr, woah. GG. im so nervous. cant slp now! luckily i managed to slp just now. i expected this. but it's ok. it's not abt winning or losing the game. as long as we enjoy the game, we're alr a winner. mummy din reply if she's coming for my match. will she come?

hey! i love my team ya? i read mich's blog. im so glad that my team's getting closer and better. haha. we're really bonded this time. we have team bag, keychain and bottle! a platypus bottle. haha. i've nv thot of that before. now we play tgt, talk tgt and eat tgt. had so fun with my team. hey girls! no matter how far we can make it this season, i just wanna say that u guys have been real great all these while. i love u guys regardless the result. so let's concentrate on our match tmr and fight hard girls!